heR LiFe.

2009-12-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

sorie peepz...
inactive here.

Babysitting Day.

2009-11-28T20:23:00.004+08:00

Was awaken by Aqil's voice at the doorstep arnd 9.45 am..
Kak Nana & hubby left their 2 mth old son with us
while they have their own time to go jb...
The whole house was super duper excited to babysit Aqil..
Brought him fer a walk under the void deck where i met Zie..
Chatted fer a while & we went on our separate ways...
By the time, Lil Aqil fell asleep on my shoulders...Put him to sleep fer a while..
He woke up crying & mum feed him with milk..We took turns to take care of him..
A gd lil godson who kept quiet all along until after bath...
After mum went to work, he started crying like nobody's business...
Haiz...Quite tiring to take care of a baby...
Learnt to change diapers, help mum to bathe him & feed him with milk...
No wonder every parent lack of sleep when having a newborn....
Must be real prepared to be a parent frm now on.. Hee...
Waiting fer his mummy to fetch him...

Birthday Celebration Pics.

2009-11-27T16:07:00.004+08:00

Cake Cutting Moment.

made a wish & hopefully it'll be granted. :D

Movie wif dearest bebey.

2009-11-26T21:39:00.003+08:00

25/11
Bebey suprised me & asked me out fer movie as he had free tix fer 2 after
he came bck frm Wild Wild Wet.

Although i've already watched 2012 online halfway thru,
i went to watch it at GV wif bebey yesterdae.Coincidentally, we met Daniel & his gf thr & we got our seats nxt to theirs.Was a gd movie indeed but it doesn't make sense at the ending part.
But i did enjoy it & thnks bebey.

26/11
Went to Geylang wet market todae fer some grocery shopping wif bebey in the afternoon .
Suprisingly, he accompanied me. We're like husband & wife alrdy.
Met 2 of his aunt thr.
Sorie dearest fer troubling u. (Prawn Smell Box)
After putting things at hm, went to Afghan to buy food fer his fam & my lil bro.
Bought some food at Tmart & we had lunch togeda at my crib.
Slack wif both brudders, watching 'Pontianak' movie.
He went off arnd 8+ & i met Syaz & Zura at Mac.
Chit chat fer a while & head hm.
Mum's nt back yet..Found out dat i lost $5 when i checked my purse.. Pfft!!
& i haven't renew my damn book. Haiz...

While browsin sis blog, i found dis ...a saying goes..
"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love."
— Tom Robbins (via kari-shma) (via lovebot) (via papertissue) (via studdedribbons)...
It's somewhat true...
Will be goin dwn nw..Helpin mum to carry some grocery stuff...
.Tata.

-jannahafai-

Birthday Celebration.

2009-11-22T07:30:00.001+08:00

was actually heading to town in the bus & they changed their mind abt goin thr...
had a last minute dinner with the boys @ Bedok Corner Food Centre...
thnks kak nas & abg for the splendid food...
thnkiu guys fer making my day a wonderful one..

headed hm wif em by cab...
was running late as dad waited 4 me & lil bro at hm as he was unwell..
relaxed fer a moment while waiting fer elder bro to be bck cos we're gonna catch a midnite movie, 'Raging Phoenix'....
dearest bf tag along...elder bro & bf went to book fer the tix while me & sis nas waited in the car....
head dwn to Al-Ameen fer supper where i had my 'Fried Ice-cream' fer dessert...
Yum Yum..
Bro drove so fast that we reached Ehub less than 15 mins juz to catch the movie on time...almost made me puke...
The movie started arnd 2.50am and ended arnd nearly 5 am...
A great movie indeed..i cried at the ending...
Reached hm arnd 6+...can't sleep despite being a lil sleepy...bf's asleep...
Afterall, I enjoyed my bdae!!
Thnkiu once again to Abg, Kak Nas & Bebey fer the great bdae outin....

P.S-pics will be uploaded soon.

-jannahafai-

Great time wif bf.

2009-11-21T04:05:00.004+08:00

no matter how irritating i can be, dearest bebey will still tolerate it..
thnks dearest fer takin me out on my 19th birthday even though we had no plans...
all i need is just ur love & dat will be the greatest gift i've ever asked frm u...
presents,cakes,flowers is incomparable to the love that u've showered on me all along...

"Thank you so much b...I luv u so much!"

-jannahafai-

another plain dull day.

2009-11-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

as far as i'm concern, dearest bf is in camp & he didn't get his nites off...
ouh great...*sigh*
missin him badly...
he juz texted me & he'll be tuckin in to bed early...
i'm dead bored at hm alone wif juz my lappy wif me in my room...
everyone's nt back yet...there's only my cat accompanying me...
i had a bad day in sch & it drags the whole dae....
gosh...how sucky can it be...
perhaps i'll watch an online movie to kill my boredom...

-cheerio-

-jannahafai-

[Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living.]

i juz hate the feeling of being controlled...

2009-11-17T19:01:00.003+08:00

i'm like super super duper mad ryte nw....
cn i have the life dat i used to have?? the freedom dat i once had...
can i??????
i miss having the whole time to maself doing things dat i want...
i miss having the fun life i use to have wif frens & all......
but everytg change nw...damn....
i've put it aside & i'm soooo missin it soooooo much...
it sucks man....haiz...
i need my own space.......

Splendid Saturday.

2009-11-14T23:42:00.004+08:00

@ Tamp Inter

Adorable Baby: Lil Aqil Anaqi

sad thing bf didn't get to join us to Robinson Sale @ Singapore Expo Hall 5...
woke him up arnd 8, he gets ready & off to werk...
normal routine on weekends + getting ready to go Expo took the whole afternoon time...
So mum,sis & me cab down to Expo as we were late to mit Kak Nana, Kak Neni & Kak Wati..
Little Aqil was there wif her mama,Kak Nana...Mum took care of him while we shop fer our things...
bought some lingerie + mattress + jacket + a pair of slippers +1 polyester Jean Perry pillow+ 2 packets of garlic bread + E.L.F makeup was close to 200 bucks...damn, a hole in the pocket...
Had enuf of shopping & we head dwn to Tampines to had our dinner....
Kak Neni went off earlier...We waited fer Kak Nana's hubby & off to CS Food Culture...
Had spaghetti bolognese 4 myself...
We took turns to take care of Lil Aqil while his parent are eating...
Mum was like hinting me to get married soon & have my own baby...
Yea rite..dat'll be in few years down the road....
Looking at Lil Aqil makes me wanna have my own..teehee...
Hmm..it's been so long dat i've not been out to shopping on weekends...
Dat's all fer todae...
Looking fwd to wait fer dearest bf to be hm frm werk... :D

Emotional outburst.

2009-11-11T19:11:00.009+08:00

juz wanna let out my feelings dat has been disturbing since the past few crucial wks....
to those who knew abt it, juz keep it to urself...
& to the busybody who's been spreading arnd, shut ur fucking trap alrite...
it's none of ur fucking business..
u've got a problem with me, u come & talk to me directly...

i've been on a cranky mood since...
sorie boyfriend 4 being like a fuck up attitude bitch...
all i could ask frm u is juz ur love & attention....
please dun drive me crazy with ur nonsensical past behaviour....
i had it enuf....

life's back as per normal..
i' m seeing a big change in my bf....a positive change i mean...
a more loving, caring & matured boyfriend...
a man who i can turn to in times of happiness & hardship...
a man whom i can share the moment of tears & joy with....
learnt a lot frm dis unforgettable experience....
THANK YOU for all the sacrifices babylove!!!
i reallie hope dat dis change wouldn't be temporary aites....
sad to say dat i can't mit him todae...
"Bacen, i miss you so much lah"
have to wait till fridae den.....see you soon....

glad dat everytg's finally over except with the emotional unstability...
fer exception, i'm getting sensitive over little things nw...
dun mind abt it yea...hope u understand...
& to all dat who has been there 4 me, a big THANK YOU to u guys once again....
ntg could repay ur care & concern.....

-jannahafai-

A day in sch after 2 weeks MC. . .

2009-11-11T12:18:00.008+08:00

first thing first upon reaching sch, breakfast before goin to class...
had chicken rice with thousand island sauce with nelly @ Cafe 1....
tot of goin lecture but ended up skippin it & spending our time at MLC with raddy & new fren,ryZa...
most hilarious part was the new fren fell frm the swivel chair & we burst into laughter till we had stomach cramp...the nursing students laugh so loud that we were so embarassed...
ryZa switch to a new chair & someone almost fell upon seating at the 'suay' broken chair...

gfs went to toilet...im alone here updating my blog to avoid frm dozing off...
startin to miss dearest bf....hope to mit him when he gets out frm camp fer his nite's out...

"B, i reallie2 miss u!!!! Hope u read dis...."

will be goin to class soon. . . waiting patiently fer gfs to be back....
bubbye!!! :)

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wif raddy. not in picture: nelly

continuation to the story after the gurls are back...it's like every 1 hr, 1 person will fall frm dat stupid miserable chair...pity those gurls who sat on it...hahahahahha.....
i'm so bad to laugh at them but i juz can't help it....a whole day of laughter till i get hm.....
-raddy, dun u start to laugh at it again okay....-
.funny.

-jannahafai-

Updates.

2009-11-10T21:09:00.004+08:00

i'm glad that everytg's fine nw...
To those who have been giving me moral support during the crucial time,
THANKS A LOT!!
Really appreciate it.....
And to dearest bf, thnks honey fer all the sacrifices u've made fer me....
Will be back to sch tmr......I miss goin to sch so much... :)

-jannahafai-.

Backdated Photos.

2009-10-31T21:57:00.008+08:00

[ i love you SYED FAISAL]

Recent Photos Frm Mth of September To Current Mth.

Updates.

2009-10-30T15:57:00.004+08:00

i'm back blogging after a month or so...
been bz aft sch reopens...upcoming ETP projects...
most of the time nw, i'm either at hm or in sch...
dearest bf been spending most of his time with me even though he's bz werkin during weekends...Thnx LOVE!

i'm bored at hm nw...havin fever for few daez alrdy...haiz...
my parents are out & the rest of my siblings are werkin...
i guess i'll be doing some house chores to fill up my free time nw...

Will upload pics soon.

-jannahafai-.

Comeback. . .

2009-09-20T07:38:00.004+08:00

it's been quite some time i didn't update my blog...

there's a lot of things 4 me to say... i'll make it short & simple...

been thru some major problems..i'm thankful dat it's settled one by one..

all thnks to my family especialy my elder bro, sis & mum dat i'm back on track...

not forgetting my dearest bf, Afai & my closest peepz who's been thr 4 me all along..

Thanks to all!! :)

On dis beautiful 1st dae of Syawal, i would like to take dis opportunity to apologise to everyone surrounding me 4 my past mistakes & the past misunderstanding may it be on purpose or not..

Will be updating pics during my free time. =D

2009-08-14T16:33:00.001+08:00

Will be back soon to update my blog.
Complicated life at present state.

Shit stuff.

2009-08-06T15:18:00.001+08:00

some people are just unhappy about others...
why bother about other people's life when u should mind your own....
another thing, hate tag at ppl's blog...
get a life faggots...
i dun have time to entertain such trash....

i need him in my life.

2009-07-30T18:08:00.005+08:00

since the whole thing dat has been happening, we're lack of communication...
pls dearest, dun do dis to me...
despite u being bz, u could jz reply to my msges....
u cn have ur freedom dat u wanted so much, i'll give it but there'll be a limit to it...
i juz wish to have u bck in my life as per normal baby..

->Setiaku Di Sini<-

Ku terasa kesyahduan
Menyelimut malamku sepi
Ku menanti kepulanganmu
Kau janji-janjikan
Satu masa dulu

Hanya kau kasih
Kau kukasihi
Kata-kata yang dilafazkan
Mengikat jiwa dan cinta
Hingga tak termimpi
Pengganti yang lain..

Biar ku dicengkam gelisah
Dibuai rindu yang mendalam
Resah mendamba belaianmu
Yang teramat kudahaga..

Kumasih lagi setia
Biarpun takdir mencabar
Kita terpisah
Kumasih lagi di sini
Berpegang teguh kalimah cinta
Ku bisikan dalam tangisan
Yang gugur berderai ke bumi
Menjadi bingkisan ku yang akhir
Untuk bekalan jalanmu
Mencari mahkota
Menghiasi pelamin kita.

i miss u baby!!!!!

Another Major Obstacle.

2009-07-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

DIA insan pertama yang bertakhta
DIA insan pertama yang ku cinta
DIA pernah membuat ku bahagia
DIA yang mengajarku
Tentang erti rindu

Tiada ku duga
Permulaan yang jernih
Menjadi keruh dengan tiba-tiba
Bisa rintangan antaraku dan DIA
Cinta terhalang oleh orang tua

-it'll be a happy ending baby-

i wish things will turn out better fer me.

2009-07-28T23:12:00.003+08:00

fucking pissed with everytg dat's happening to me lately...
gosh...haiz...
i jz wanna have a normal happy life w/o having to worrie abt so many things...
i tot of a new fresh start in my relationship but it juz got worse...
i dunnoe wad to do nw...gaining my love back fer him..
but he dun give a shit abt it..
somehw or rather, trying to solve things out one by one...
it's driving me crazy....
i need my own space fer nw...
& to dearest bf, i wish u could read dis & give it some thought..

Say whatever you like.

2009-07-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

i dun need frens who are such gd pretenders.
i definitely won't lose a thing w/o their friendship.
say whatever u like suckers.
keep on bitching abt me cos i dun give a damn abt it.
i'm happy with my life as it is nw.
& btw silence doesn't mean i lose it to u. get dis right.
it's juz dat i jz can't be bothered abt it.
i'm tired to entertain dis sickening shit.
i've got better things to attend to.

-i rest my case-

meaningless.

2009-07-25T01:12:00.006+08:00

I wish u could realise how much i love u baby...
Criously i'm so disappointed in u...
Can't u feel dat i care so much about u more den my own life....
Or maybe my presence is juz meaningless...
U seem not to be bothered abt wadever i said...
Stop pretending dat ntg happen...
It's time to realise dat all dis while i've been so freakin lenient to u....
It's better dat u stop all ur nonsense nw rather than regretting it later...
I'm tired of repeating the same thing over & over again....
How stupid fer me to cry if u still dun wanna change...Haiz...
Please do some soul searching & come to realise of ur own mistake..

imsimplytired.

FiVe mThs.

2009-07-23T23:30:00.005+08:00

MyHotComments

-To dearest bf-
Happy 5 mthsary darlink!!
I'm thankful dat everytg's bck to normal...
Hope dis journey together in the coming months will be a smooth sailing for us....
Rest assured, i'll stand by u no matter wad happens....
I love you dearest Afai!!!! I miss u bebeh.....

To my babylove.

2009-07-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

Aku dan Dirimu

Tiba saatnya kita saling bicara
Tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa
Tentang rindu yang menggebu
Tentang cinta yang tak terungkap

Sudah terlalu lama kita berdiam
Tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam
Memenuhi mimpi-mimpimu malam kita

Duhai cintaku, sayangku, lepaskanlah
Perasaanmu, rindumu, seluruh cintamu
Dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu
Sesaat di keabadian

Jika sang waktu kita hentikan
Dan segala mimpi-mimpi jadi kenyataan
Meleburkan semua batas
Antara kau dan aku, kita

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tHe uNusuaL wEdNesDay . . .

2009-07-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

Went to sch by cab as i tot i was late fer my PTC CA2...
Waited patiently abt nearly 10 mins outside my usual class waiting fer my bloody teacher to answer my call as he change the venue of our class...
I was with this module mate of mine which i dunnoe his name...
Instead of our class at level 4, it was at level 5...
I prepared my calculator & my pencil case + some ledger paper before entering...
Thnks to him, he didn't inform us of the change of venue...
Everyone else has started doing the test...Cheebs!!!!!
Ended the test 15 mins before the finishing time...
It was quite okay lah...

Headed hm straight aft sch as i promised Zie to tag along fer WingTai interview @ Toa Payoh ..
Met her at her crib aft I dressed up at my place....
Had ayam masak lemak cili padi w/- rice ... Delicious!!
Took 12 to Afghan bustop & change to bus no. 8 to Toa Payoh...
Had a hell of a long ride...Doze off quite a number of times..Hehe...(Sleepyhead)
Met Izzahberry @ Toa Payoh inter....
We were quite lost there but managed to ask around fer directions to the CC....
As soon as we reached the venue, filled up & return the application form to the in-charge..
Had to wait fer quite some time b4 we were interviewed individually....
Before dat sempat hydropuff near the main road...
Saw different people with different character....
Few applied fer Supervisor post but mainly full-time position........
3 of us applied fer part-time position...
Izzah went first followed by4-5 other ppl & then followed by me & Zie....
Was quite nervous while waiting to be interviewed...
Didn't put high hopes to get the job... :)

before we head off to Toa Payoh...

after the interview..muke ade senyum...

After the interview was over, took 59 bck to Tamp..Alighted at bustop JC..
Was soooo damnnnn hungggrrryyyyyyy............
Went to Kopitiam & bought food + 1.5 Litre of Ice Lemon Tea...
Sat near Osiris where we had our meal....
Managed to finish our food....Smue dh lapar gilerr....
Waited fer Zie to come bck as she washed her hand at toilet Tmart...
Went off & head hm as my mum was sick...She needs her panadol extra...
The normal routine after i reach hm...
Went to Afghan fer a while to make my new specs...Maklumlah dh potek...
Hate wearing cntct lenses as i'll alwaez get eye infection....
I'll be collecting it tmr evening....Thnks bf fer accompanying me...Appreciate it...
Sorie fer being fickle minded...Heh...

Head hm & no one was at hm...Sheeshhh.....
Mum keep on calling every nw & den...irritating but it's ok...i was lonely at hm..(ily mum)..
Watch tv until bored...
On my lappy & there i goes: facebook-ing, tagged-ing, blog-ing & blablabla....
Waiting fer bf to call me... :(

imissyoubacen.

LiFe @ pReseNt sTaTe . . .

2009-07-14T01:55:00.008+08:00

it's been a hard time fer me fer the past mth till nw....

be it problems related to family, relationship & school, im trying to solve it one by one.....
it ain't easy fer me especially goin thru all of dis at one shot...like WTH!!
it's been hell of a time....
kinda stressed up & it has been affecting my health...
weird...especially at nite i've been coughing blood & my whole body will ache...haiz...
dun wish to see the doctor...
had enuf of medication alrdy.....too many drugs in my body...
too many things happen lately.

130709

came bck frm sch arnd 3+...
hang arnd @ osiRis wif zie & san...
totally bored + hungry + thirsty....
chit chat while waiting fer nad & fad.....
i went hm fer quite some time to cook spaghetti fer zie & san + the ppl at hm.....
i repeat eh..it's spicy spaghetti...
i msged zie to come to my hse...cos i dunnoe whr mum kept all the tupperware...
i tot there were onli 2 of em...but zairi & izzah tag along...
it wasn't enuf fer zairi & izzah but they get to taste it...
Sorie lynn sayang...i'll cook fer u again k nxt time....
Zie commented -Nurul, da boleh kahwin-...haha...the usual dialogue of makcik2....
I prepared some ingredients fer sambal udang & refrigerate it...
Nk gi lepak jgk kt osiRis..hehe...
Came dwn arnd evening....
Not long after dat, lynn & bf came.......
Not enuf seat fer everyone..... Everyone squeeze...
But me & bf sat at another table...
After bf went off, all the peeps in sch uniform head hm...
Me & lynn accompanied san to his void deck...
We stayed at the void deck & chat as we had no where to go...
Waited fer san quite some time...Shasha came later & we played cards....
To Lynn: -i wanna see ur samurai jack again- haha...kiut pe....
Nearly 10 pm, me & lynn went off as she had to head hm cos 'Abang Wan' da bising2...
Accompanied her to Tmart...Met her cousin thr & she took cab hm..
Kesian gurlfren aku...Da sakit2 kluar jgk...Kalaulah aku da pass lesen, siang2 aku dh hntr kau gurl...Hehe...Tpi lmbt lgi la tu... :)
Got hm & freshen up maself...
Cooked sambal udang fer mum....Feed ma elder sis...Alala nk manje2 pulak...
Msn wif lynn...Was on webcam... -funny faces- :P
Den anis came online...chat wif her... it's been a long time since i last met her...Kinda miss her..
Will be tucking in to bed soon. ..

~Here's SoMe piCs~

while waiting fer my nxt class. . .

bored bebeh*

them. -OsiRis-

candid zie.

-nurul <3 afai-

ReuNiOn.

2009-07-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

:tHe AirpoRt FaMiLy :

My 2 other gf, Kif & Arfa couldn't make it as they're werkin...Haiz....

We had our dinner @ PizzaHut Lucky Plaza,

Rurul's treat!!

Ham, Rurul, Me, Ajeeb

My Super Duper Bodyguards fer the day.

Rurul a.k.a my twin bro w/- Mum.

Coca-Cola fer 5.

-Was too hungry & didn't took the pics of the food we had-

They called it Munchie Mouse.

Another dessert.

Total bill was $76.32

chill @ MacDonaLds- HeeReN.

He looks bad without his cap...

Feeling2 Pegang bunga...

~That's all fer todae peePz... ~

tHuRsDay EveNiNg.

2009-07-09T23:35:00.001+08:00

Credits to CameraWoman : QuiN Zie & NaD:

Pics describe it all.

Sch ReoPeN.

2009-07-06T23:35:00.004+08:00

the sleepy head.

First thing first, i forgot to bring my lanyard to sch...In addition i have to make a new ITE ezlink as i lost it during the holidays...Gosh....so careless of me...
Met Fatin @ bustop 9 before heading to sch...
Was supposed to wait fer Nelly thr but she was late & we met at bustop 31 instead....

unDer the bRidGe...

@ tHe LaDieS.

Me & fatin waited fer MasgiLerr & Nelly @ bustop 31...
Had some hydropuff before entering sch thru maingate...
Bloody hell we have to show our lanyard...Leceh uh...
Went to 3rd floor to change my shoes & we head to Cafe 1 fer lunch...
Met Zairi baybay thr & Boncit...Zie came later abt 11+ wif Alep...
Had nasi ayam thousand island wif cheese cream...Been craving fer dat during hols...
Yum2...Burrrpppp!!! Ooops...

.:I hate goin to class:.

After lunch, as usual, hydropuffs...
Slack at SAC...I fell asleep while msging babyy darlinkk....
Went to Cafe 2 to had my mushroom soup wif Nelly...
Was soooooo hungry due to heavy rain...
Came bck to Cafe 2 to buy popcorn chicken wif Fatin & Zie...
Met my lil bro near CVC...He came all the way frm ITE Balestier to ask me fer house keys...Alah cian...
Me,fatin,zie,my lil bro & alep went to cafe 1 to meet san...
Mas was thr wif her frens...
Sumpah San mcm 'Mat Larkin'...apeerrrr jerrrr....hahaha....
Ade hati nk kacau Zie 'Minah Johor'...ape niee....
Accompanied my lil bro to buy food fer himself...He was complaining he was hungry easily...He had eclairs & spicy chicken floss bun aft he eat nasi ayam thousand island wif sambal...
Orgnye kurus tapi tank besar....San was joking arnd all the time...
Ish3...Si mat larkin nie....Bising je....
We went separate ways after dat....
Walked to bustop 12 wif lil bro & san...In the bus both of them was like so irritating showing off their muscles...Lynkn je...Heh...
Went to Tmart Mac as lil bro wanted to meet his fren thr...Coincidence, we met Arep & Aishah...
Slacked at Tmart Mac while waiting fer Zie & Alep...
Went hm, bathe & dressed up, leaving hm arnd 8.30pm to slack wif Shasha & bf at Osiris-Fitness....
B4 heading to Osiris, me & zie bought cheese fries & ice lemon tea...
Pathetic sey...4 org je...Slalu kerusi penuh smpai takde tmpt nk dudok...
Sit & chat till arnd 10 & we left fer hm...
Send off Zie sumwhr near the tailor shop...
Got hm & usual routine...Check my mails & facebook-ing + tagged-ing...
I'm turning in early todae...
-That's all fer todae-

imissmybftruckloads.

pLain day.

2009-07-05T16:56:00.003+08:00

Woke up arnd noon... bathe & got ready fer wedding invite.. Yan Arab sis got married... Met diyana at her bustop as she was oso goin to the wedding & we walked to 206... Coincidence we both wear almost the same baju kurung in black...
Yan fetch us frm the opposite blk...Paiseylah... Waited abt 10-15 mins den bf came with the rest...-the guys side- Quite kecoh..bckgtians escort ++ the donuts...
But criously the kompang such a turn off... I met Su Ying thr..my TMSS junior..
Chit chat fer a while den got some food & eat wif darlink,semut,diy & 2 other peepz..
[comment on the food-marvellous!! ]
Feeza was thr wif her lil irfan..soo tembam..
Met semut's wife & her son...so cute...
Mcm geram gitu tgk baby...nk jgk bleh???...hehe....
Tk lame lgi dh ade mummy's clan tolak baby pram...haha...
& dat'll be few years dwn the road frm nw....

Till here....im tired & sleepy...
-Tata-

Dan sesungguhnya aku masih mencintai kamu...

2009-07-05T04:56:00.004+08:00

i miss him..& yes i reallie2 miss him sooooo muchhh....
fer the very first time in my whole life dat i've love sumone dis much...
i could say he's means everytg to me....
even though things turn out to be different nw, i reallie hope dat it'll get better as soon as possible....
i noe he doesn't care much abt hw i feel towards him as he simply noes dat i love him....
i've learn to forgive & forget...
to bear dis pain, it ain't easy...
almost gave up on dis relationship but i jz couldn't....
to me, when i build a relationship & give my very best to uphold it, i won't simply give up on it...
& dearest lynn, thnks a lot fer giving me motivation & being my listening ear...
im trying my  very best to make dis relationship works baby...
i reallie hope dat we'll pull all odds together...
pls darlink, dun b in silence...
i hate ur silence cos it jz kills me deep inside...
i hope u'll come to realise hw much i love you sumtime soon boy...
i ain't giving up on us...trust me...


iloveyouafai.

Updates.

2009-07-04T03:14:00.002+08:00

:Updates:
What have i been doing fer the past 3 daez...
Sorie no pics uploaded.

-Wed-

Accompany my elder bro & frens to Kaki bukit place as Anjang went 4 interview...
Went round & round the area & ended up in the same place...
Pening2...
We split up...
Went to bike workshop ...
Thereafter, went to get my new helmet @ Ah boy... Took my X1 seat nxt to auntie shop....
Get my stickers done @ auntie shop....Supposedly we were goin to ma aunt's place aft dat but we're shagged as we spent the whole afternoon goin frm one place to another...
Met my dum2 bf @ usual place...
Lynn & Wan came to meet us...
I kept quiet all along..
Accompany Wan to send lynn bck hm wif bf...
Came hm to hear mum nagging...blablablabla...
Slept @ 12+... Eyes are swollen...Tears all dried up...

-Thur-
Woke up in the afternoon...criously tired...
Bathe & did some house chores....
watch tv & chill at hm...
mum feed us nasi briyani...so the manje...hehe...nt alwaez k...
burrpppp***
arnd evening went to 3garden watch lil bro play sepak takraw...
punyelah malas gi blakang pun naik motor..haiyo...
thnks to my elder bro...he wanted to take his racing foot rest frm his fren thr...
padehal bleh jln kaki tak nk...
nvm abt dat..
went hm arnd 10+...slacked arnd in bro's room while waiting fer his gf...
meanwhile my bro slept...tak baik2...
kesian gf dier tggu..legongnye abg...
Bro fry wedges fer us to eat & we watched 'Congkak' together...
Slept at nearly 5 am...I miss him though...Hope dat things will get better btween us...

-Fri-
Hmm...dis the usual routine ++ sweeping,vacuum...
Bathe & got dressed...
Headed to Kak wati's hse to take some clothes...
Visited my stepgrandma while waiting fer lynn & wan..
Met my dum2 bf wif them...
They made plans to go suntec but bf IU unit's spoilt..
Wan lead the way as bf unsure of how to get thr..Selengeh...
Parked the bikes bhind Zam-Zam..
We took train to ct hall...
Bf's complaining-What a long walk to suntec...
Met syiddiq at his werk place as lynn & wan was buying cake fer rafi & peepz...
But end up we have to go Marina Square as the cake is nt available thr..
Haiyo..Buat penat jek..
But it's ok i enjoy the long walk wif bf & them...
Aku ni asyik tertggl je kt blakang..Thnks to dum2...
We were in silence frm the start...Lynn make things better fer us..
Maceh lynn..Sayyyannnggg kau banyak2....
After getting the cake, we had dinner at the foodcourt...
Background music mcm tau je fer double date...Heh..
As usual, ciggies aft food & a long walk back to raffles city to take the train to bugis...
Chit chatting abt hw mats & minahs talk...kekek sey..
Hmm...when afai meets wan there's alwaez the guys talk btween them..
Ape lagi...me & lynn had our talk...ketawe2...
Lynn..F.Y.I- ur laughter is so addictive...Perot aku smpai cramp ketawe ngn kau tau...
Ouh ya...& the apek tua we were laughing abt..
Haiz..tk baik2...hahahaha...
Got to the bike & we went off togeda...
But halfway thru we lost track of each other..
-Got hm & rested..Accompany sis using the lappy & she's asleep nw...
On msn wif lynn & facebook-ing..Bored...
Waiting fer dum2 to msg me...

..................................................................................................

:Msg fer bf:

I noe we've been thru a lot of obstacles fer the past few weeks...
It'so bloody complicated & confusing...
I juz wanna let u noe i'll still love you no matter wad baby darlink...
Everyone deserves a 2nd chance...
I've forgiven u fer ur mistakes & i'm trying hard to forget all abt it...
I'm sorie on my part too...
I want us to make things better fer our relationship..
Despite knowing dat we haf to overcome certain obstacles together, we haf to b strong baby...
Dun give up juz yet...I'll be alwaez by ur side in times of hardship & happiness...
Last but not least...
I want u to noe dat i love you dearest afai with all my heart...
Ntg cn ever change dat...

iloveyoubacen.

Things happen.

2009-07-01T02:18:00.002+08:00

u make me hate you boy. . .

I dunnoe whr to start frm...
Im having mixed feelings...stone hearted rite nw...
Why has all of dis been happening to me...Life is so unfair...
Being loyal to ur love ones & u gave them ur trust yet they betray u...
How heartless they can be...
God noes hw i feel rite nw...A lil depressed....
Im sick & tired of all of dis...
Give me a break man....Fuck love!!!

random ...

2009-06-29T16:31:00.002+08:00

Bored at dis hour...

baby's in camp..hmm...it's kinda weird when maysarah add me on tagged...
hmm..layankn je... mum cooked nasi lemak...yum2...sungguh lazat..
Done with the kitchen chores...
having stomach flu as i keep on vomitting & my stomach hurts...

Both my brudders are out fer movie...
confirm2 tgk transformers... (boring..)
Sis is werkin while mum & dad is at hm...
No mood to go out...My lil cat is sleeping nxt to me...
Temankn la konon...Tdo mcm org keje contract....

Kinda happie fer my lil bro as i get to spend most of my time w/- him....
Hmm..baby msged me at tagged..hehe...
Miss you darlink!!
Fer nw, everytg is smooth sailing...
But there'll be times dat i feel like running away frm all the problems...
Taking things slowly.....
1 week away frm sch reopen..Haiz...
If only the holidays are extended...i'll be more den happy...

! PiCtuReS !

: I get to see my lil bro!!! :

: adik & kakak :

: sis, lil bro, maself :

:: Miss those moments that i had with my family... ::

~Happy FaMiLy @ Marina Barrage~

~My best gurlfren (sis)~

~My darliNg bro~

A date out with YaNa. . .

2009-06-27T05:20:00.010+08:00

With Yana & Nora @ sub court.

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It's Yana 18th Birthday...[260609]
Normal birthday outing as frens...

Bnyknye nk jmpe kul 5.30... Aku da siap2 dier lak yg lmbt... We met up arnd 6.40pm..Supposedly we wanted to have our dinner @ Swensens... But we changed our mind & eat at LJS...... Tklah lame sngt smpai mkn 1 jam eh... Bebual ngn ketawe je lebih....
We ate the chicken bonanza set meal which cost $9.90 fer 2 sets + clam chowder + chocolate cream pie = $15.65...
Macam mane tk makin boncet...haiyo...
Went fer window shopping....
Head to backgate & waited fer dearest bacen...
He took his own sweet time to mit me...
He looked very tired & i played arnd with strings which is meant fer his lil kuda kepang..
Went to his hse as he wanted khir to repair his comp..
Sumtg wrong with his internet aGaiN...

Help my baby to complete his masterpiece...
Khir was configuring the comp while Yana teach Baby Iqah her homework....
Arnd 3++am, went to bkgt & mit up with the rest..
So sleepy...
Went hm by cab...mate tk leh angkt dok...

~ Pics fer the dae ~

sempat amek gmbr sambil tunggu yana.. tklah lame sngt tggu dier...

lawa lah tu muke dua2..

Muke stop it eh tweety.

Posing ngn pokok pun jadilah kek..

(Pose mentel...)

Happy 18th bdae PiNk!!

last KopeKnye gmbr....

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-i like dis pic. [taken on march]-

once in a blue moon takin pic together....

ily bacen!!!

credits to dyla fer takin dis pic.

Frustrated!!!!

2009-06-24T04:47:00.003+08:00

Pagi2nye customer slalu problem ar..

Bingit sey...Stupid cock up ppl....

Dahlah aku tk cukop tdo...Lgi dorg tambah masalah...

Haiz....Nabey...

Dis is wad u get when u werk overnite...

Dammit!!!

Nasib baik aku boleh sabar ngn org2 mcm gini..Irritating bastard....

CouNtiNg doWn....

2009-06-23T19:07:00.003+08:00

Slept at nearly 6 am...
Had to wake up at 8...Kinda sleepy actuallie...
Bathe & got ready to visit lil bro..
Went thr by cab with mum & dad...
Reached thr abt 9.15 am...
Mum went to register & filled up the health declaration form..
Waited at the waiting area...

Met lil bro..
Muke masai...haha..& his hair is so thick...
2 more daez & i get to hug him... :)
I miss you very2 much bro...
Kinda happy to hear his laughter...
Usually at nite he alwaez keep me company & watch me sleep..
How swit of him...

B4 goin hm, we went to White Sands to buy his fav billabong shirt..It cost nearly 40 bucks..
I choose fer the shirt while mum & dad paid fer it..
Will be goin out to eat seafood & shopping with him on Thursdae.=)Well...It's mum's treat..
Will be missing 1 person which is elder bro as he's werkin..
Funny..Everyone else took off earlier...

Hmm...baby msged me every nw & den..
Hope dat he'll change fer the better...
I miss you love!!
Probably he'll book out on thursday or else will be seeing him on friday then...
C u soon babylove...

That's all fer todae.

I love you baby!!

2009-06-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

MyHotComments

It's our 4th mth being together.
I've nvr regretted to be with you.
I'm sorie if i've been doubting you all dis while.
All of those things which had happen earlier taught me to understand u better.
Oh boy, i nvr wish to be neither separated frm u nor being ditched by u.
I love you with all my heart..Yes, i do!!...

~ Happy 4th mthsary baby darLinK!!! ~

MoNday bLuEz...

2009-06-22T18:08:00.005+08:00

Early mornin at 3 am ++, i cooked sweet & sour prawn specially fer mum...
(Org gilerr je masak pagi2 bute...)
She told me she was hungry & will be coming bck frm werk arnd 7+...
Cooking done with much love & passion... :D
So upset dat she didn't eat it as she was very sleepy..Hmphh...
(Ni lah aku benci..masak penat2 dier pulak tk nk mkn...)

As usual, my daily routine is to check my emails & other stuff..

Been receiving a lot of updates frm tagged...irritating kape...
Checking my werk schedule every nw & den as they keep on changing the timing...
Time flies a lil slow todae...monday blues..haiz...bored...
Mum is sleeping soundly nxt to me..how cute...
I miss my lil bro soooooooooooo muccccchhhhhhhh!!!!!
Without him fer the past 3 weeks, my hm's like a graveyard...
& it's so true especially when everyone isn't at hm except fer me...

Bf have been acting so sweet like candy lately...
A lil puzzled...Funny...Weird...
Hmm..i miss him though....
Sorie dearie i make u mad yesterdae..wasn't on purpose actuallie...
He's been spending most of his time with me after the incident..ouh well...
Guilty conscious of course & trying to make up...
I'll forgive but it's hard to forget....it takes time....
I appreciate it love.

This is wad i do during my free time..

CAMWHORING!!

Criously i had ntg better to do..haha

1st shot

2nd shot

3rd shot

4th shot

& im TiRed................

Darlink bf is sleeping rite nw since he got bck hm .....
Pity my baby darlink...Didn't haf enuf rest yst....
oKay...I reallie need to take a nap nw...
Till then. Tata.

P.S- BABY, I MISS YOU!!!!!!

2009-06-21T18:07:00.003+08:00

I was reading sumone's blog when i came accross this cute video.
While the mother is eating, the little baby panda sneezed..how cute..
Poor mummy she got shocked... :)

Happy 19th BirthDay darLa!!!

2009-06-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

MySpace Graphics

Wishing you a day as special as you are. . .
Happy 19th Birthday darLiNg NeLLy!!!

May u be blessed with good health & more wealth.
Be happy always dearie.
I love you!!!!

2009-06-16T03:51:00.006+08:00

Thousand tears behind those smile.

A song dedicated to Mr.Soulja...
(It's the song that u always sing to me baby..)

Matahariku by Agnes Monica

Tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku
Kubersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Aduhai!Seribu Kali Sayang. . .

Berdosakah diriku
Terpaksa melepaskan
Cintamu yang serapuh
Dahan nan kering usang
Yang akhirnya kan patah
Terhempas gemeratap
Oh sungguh memilukan
Tak dapat ku bayangkan

Seribu kali sayang
Sangkaku kan ke mati
Cerita kasih kita
Rupanya seketika
Setelah merelakan
Setelah kau bisikkan
Segugus janji-janji
Tergamak kau mungkiri

Apakah sebenar yang terjadi
Hingga kau bersikap demikian
Sedangkan kau
Sesungguhnya percaya
Kasihku tak berbelah bagi

Aduhai
Tak sanggup ku kenangkan
Semua telah nyata
Cintamu gurauan
Datang dan hilang
Semahu hatimu
Itulah falsafah
Pegangan cintamu
Namun harus kau ingat
Hati yangmanakah
Selamanya kan sabar

I miss those times that we had together..
I miss ur laughter, ur smile & ur warmth..
Never did i expect dat u such a thing to me...
Things are different now..Tried hard to love u again but i juz couldn't...
I'm juz afraid dat history will repeat itself if i were to give u a 2nd chance to prove to me dat u'll change baby...
It's hard fer me to bear all of dis alone....
Let nature takes its course...
Time will tell....

~ReTak HaTiKu~

2009-06-15T01:26:00.003+08:00

Retak-Ella

Berabad kita telah bercinta
Mengapa kini engkau berubah
Sedangkan aku masih kekal setia
Mengharap kasih menjadi bintang jiwa

Mana janjimu akan setia
Menyayangi ku siang malammu
Melindungi dari bara sengsara
Mempertahankan mahligai bersama

Kini tiada erti memberi janji
Janji manis mu dulu
Hingga jadi api membakar dada ini

Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Tergamak kau berpaling dan teguh memilih dia
Semenjak hatimu dicuri jelita

Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Hati ini hancur dan luluh kerana mu
Seandainya ada lagi cinta di hati ini
Akan kubenamkan sepi hanya selamanya

Semalaman di cermin kenangan
Jari berdarah diretak setia
Menanggung luka di sebalik senyuman
Hanya kerana aku seorang wanita

Lemah dunia halanya
Hati kecewa dengan janji manismu
Kini jadi api membakar dada ini

This song describes the situation i'm in currently.
Wad a song...
"Thnks baby 4 everyTg! "

bRoKeN HeaRteD.

2009-06-14T23:43:00.003+08:00

i dunnoe whr it went wrong....
it's been the 2nd time nw...im deeply hurt ...
i'm confuse to make a decision nw...
he has the cheeks to cheat me on me tinkin dat he could escape frm being caught red-handed....
am i nt gd enuf fer hym??...
i'm faithful to hym & reallie tryin my very best to save my relationship..

it's easy fer guys to say sorie...
but nxt time round, they'll do it over n over again...
it ain't easy fer me to simply forgive & forget after wad had happen...
he betrayed my trust & he must try his very best to make me gain bck my trust on hym...& of course i do luv hym...
there's no more tears left fer hym nw & it's useless to cry over such a guy...
i'm stone hearted nw...all thnks to hym..
simply tired of goin thru all of dis repeatedly...
reallie need my own space to settle things slowly...

~heaRtbroKeN~.

boReD.

2009-06-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

Start off with yesterdae's routine...
Went off early mornin frm hm to visit lil bro with mum,sis,tammy & ibrahim...
Reached there 10mins b4 9.30am...
Only 3 person got to visit my lil bro...sis,tammy & ibrahim...
After the visit went to eat breakfast at this particular indian shop opp Queenstown mrt..
Had 2 egg prata with chrysanthemum tea for my breakfast...
Headed bck to Tampines where i went shopping wif my sis...
Mum went hm as she had to go werk soon...
Accompanied sis to quite a number of shops...
She bought 4 me clothes at Cotton On...ThnKs sis!!
After shopping we went to a salon at 201D...
Sis dyed he hair full head...While waiting 4 her, i fell asleep...(Sempat tdo)
Went hm & changed...
Totally shagged...

PicS :

My ReDheaD maRy JaNe sis

snapShot taKen while looKin at my untiDy beD..

-eNd-

CuRrenTly i'm like totally boreD at hm....
None of my family members is at hm....
Hmm...Ntg to do except blogging or checking emails...
FucKin pissed off nw...stupid Tagged....
It's been such a problem 4 me...
Nabey!!
Haiz...got to meet bf sumore to send his bike keys...
So leceh....ish....bingit je...
k lah...will continue later...

gRowiNg FaTTeR.

2009-06-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

My holidays haven't started yet...

I can feel that i'm growing fatter alrdy... Happy life sey...
Yea rite...correction to dat will be a stressful life with full of problems....
I don't quite eat much actuallie...but maybe the feeling came as I'm alwaez at hm rotting day by day...
For exception on the daez dat i'm werkin...
Even when i'm in sch, i don't eat during lunchtime...
Diet la konon...mcm phm...
But when i meet my bf, i rarely skip my meals..Heh...
Selera tgk dier mkn....mcm geram gitu...
I tink i've alwaez eating supper lately...
Mane tak, asyik mlm je lapar...Hehe...
Haiz...biar geMok asal jgn kurus kering mcm papan sudah..
Org kate berisi tandenye bahagia... :D
Met my darlinkk bf at mac with Diyana...Ape angin entah nk jmpe...
Accompanied him to eat as he was complaining he was damn hungry...
Mkn skali 2 double cheeseburger...Kesian dier lapar...Me & yana mkn fries je...
Chit chat till 1+ & they went off...
I went hm & food is served by my so called sis in-law..
Ate soto ayam...Yum2..such a coincidence i'm feeling hungry...
Sampai licin tggl kuah je...Camne tak makin bulat...
Mkn mlm2...haish...



HoLa FrEnZ!!

aKu makin tembaM..stResS....

Problems & MoRe pRobLeMs....

2009-06-10T04:45:00.001+08:00

Was quite surprised actuallie as most of my gfs broke up wif their bf during the same period..Such guys are an asshole & sweet talker mother fucker...
I'm happy to see them moving on with their life...

Every relationship has its own problems..Thru experience, I can say that gurls care more abt their relationship den guys...

Lately been facing too much problems...

Especially with family & my 'dearest' bf...

Haiz...Not forgetting i miss my lil bro soooooo muchhhh...

Will be visiting him tmr & friday...

Hmm....Always been alone at hm aft sch or werk..

Everyone else is werkin & will be hm late..

So lonely & quiet without my lil bro at hm...Lookin fwd towards his release...

Bf has been acting weird past few daez..When i asked him, he'll say it's ntg..
Wth...He wouldn't open up to me abt his problems...So ego...
Guys are simply guys with BIG EGO...
Even though i spent most of my free time with him, I jz feel dat it's so totally different like how we used to be...
He's changed...Haiz..A lil disappointed in him...
Afterall he's still my bf...

Despite all of which dat has been happening, i took some time to relax myself..

Kinda stress....

Yesterdae, went karaoke-ing with my elder bro & his peepz...

Enjoyed myself there...PiCs to be upload soon..

My dearest bf wasn't happy abt it...

Having mood swing i guess...Met him at tmaRt Mac..He seems nt in the mood...

Sat at the smoking area wif San,Jepon,Lynn & him..

Joke aRnd bout the eclipse thingy..Haha...Floating human in the air...

Ouh ya...also abt the apek who passed away after he farted..

Laugh like mad till i had stomach cramp..Lynn vomitted shortly...Mcm siak..

Bitch abt ppl..Gosh..Feel so bad abt it...They went off at arnd 3.30am..

Rite aft dat i sat with elder bro at KFC & went hm an hour later...

........to be continued...........

SoMe Pics at KaRaOke sessioN. . .

StRiCtLy GurLfReNz.

WiTh DaYaH.

PrEvioUs KaRaOke piC.

it's all FaTeD. . .

2009-06-05T22:30:00.001+08:00

EaRly mornin went to sub court with my lil bro, mum, dad & elder bro...

Went thr by mrt...both brudders went by bike...
Reached thr at 9.30am...
Aft nearly 2 years his case has been pending, nw den they brought up the case again..
WTH!!! Nabey...
Waited nearly fer 2 hrs for the judge...
Ouh well...my lil bro got to eat light breakfast while waiting...
Tears jz rush dwn my cheeks as soon i saw him being handcuffed & was brought away...

Didn't have the chance to hug him.. :)
Went to the probation office to apply for his probation application...
Left sub court by 12 noon...
Accompanied my elder bro to doctor & went to zie's crib aft dat...

Fatin was at her place too...
We got ready & went to Grandlink Square 4 karaoke...
Was having mixed feelings...quite upset abt my lil bro...
But i 've promise my gfs 4 the karaoke session...
Reached thr by 3.30pm...Book the room fer 2 hrs...
Took turns to sing...best part of all was the 'dangdut' song...
Zie gelek maut...Fatin was shy indeed...She took video of me & zie gelek2..haha..
Kekek gilerr...Last kopek song was las ketchup song...
Fun moments despite being upset...
Had our dinner at KFC Haig Road...Took 67 to Tamp iNt...
Went window shopping at CS & TM...
Went hm aft dat..Realliee shagged...

::PiCs BeLow::

mCm flawless gitu...

my gFs

iN the buS seMpaT pose2..

ziE darLiNkk..

peNaT tau kaRaOke..bLeh seNyum2..hehe..

DaT's aLL feR toDae....

HoPinG daT eVerTg will be smooth sailiNg.

2009-06-03T11:52:00.002+08:00

How fast time flies...
It's nearing soon...I've been stressed up lately...
Been thinking abt family, darlink bf, school & werk life...
Haiz...Wish i could jz get away frm all of dis...

Gosh...i jz simply dunnoe how to face it...
No one to turn to at dis moment...
Everyone's having their own problem...
Especially my dearest ones...
Tears are already dried up...

In sch nw...lunchtime...
Bored...Bf's having course at sembawang camp..
He'll be hm by 6 pm..
Treasuring every single moment I spent with him... :)
Thanks bf for spending most of your precious time with me..
I appreciate it lots...I'll pray hard for u dat everytg's gonna be okay tmr...
Be strong dearest...I noe ur mind isn't at ease thinking abt the consequences...

-JannahAfai.

GrEaT iMpacT!!!

2009-05-28T18:43:00.004+08:00

Lately, i've been all stressed up...

Facing too many problems at the moment...

Associating with my r/s, my siblings & parents...

Haiz...it's all destiny..I have to overcome it & i won't easily give up....

Hmm...it's juz part & parcel of life...

Went to court early dis morning...Bf was so tension...

Prayed hard dat he'll be fine...Yana accompanied me as i was the only girl...

My heart almost fell out of place upon hearing the extended court date...

Luck was on our side...I couldn't bear to face this situation...

Pity Rahmat..Boy bailed him out as he forget to bring his bail document...

Haiyo...

Yana told me abt what bf said to her earlier...Couldn't help it that my tears jz drop...

And of course i luv my dearest Afai....i'm happy to see my bf with a smiling face..

Love u baby!!

Hope dat his lawyer is able to help him out with the case until it close or drop the charges on him....

All this has make an impact in this year's journey...

Whatever it is, i'll be strong to see it thru...

-jannahafai.

Facebook & TaGGeD MaDnEss....

2009-05-27T00:24:00.003+08:00

Updates....
Hmm...woke up late today as I slept abt 4.30 am....
Yst, I was at KFC Tampines Mart with my both brudders & sis-naseeha...
Talked to Mira, Bob's gf....
Gurl talk.. :)
Was at Mac & had time to upload pics at facebook & friendster....
Sempat..

Went to sch & it's only half an hour...
Haha..star karat...
Went to mlc & update facebook...Took quite a number of quiz...
Supposedly had to go hm by 11.45 as i'm werkin at 2pm...
Called SL & told em dat i'll be late...
Dressed up & left 4 werk...

Met my darLiNk baby...mish him lots...wish we like the old times....Luv u darLinK...
Bf's wifey is in the workshop...Miss the hell ride...
Was criously sleepy..had to bear with this irritating eyes...
As usual, was on the internet checking friendster & facebook...
Nt forgetting reading blogs...
Hmm...ouh ya...facebook games madness...all thnks to my baby...

ciao.

He taught me to be strong. . .

2009-05-25T14:47:00.002+08:00

Despite all the problems that i'm facing, bf is alwaez there 4 me...
I can see dat he's also overcoming his own problems...Haiz..
But it's hard 4 me to understnd him if he keep it all to himself..
Guys are ego..No matter wad they'll try to hide their problems frm their frens & gf....
They tend to be happy-go-lucky like me..Heh.. :)

Sometimes i can't hide my feelings..
I'll be crazy if everytg i keep to myself..it happened once & i won't let it happen again..
It was a serious depression state...I hope this time round i can overcome it patiently...
ouh gosh...i have to be strong for my siblings & especially for my dearest mum...
Wish to graduate fast & will start my career life soon so that i can end the poverty life..

To my dearest bf,

no matter wad, we'll pull thru all odds together aites..

Be strong baby...u'll alwaez have me by ur side in times of happiness & hardships...

I'm happy to meet u in my life & i'm sorie if i've given u so much pressure lately...

Despite u having ur own problems & u've been hiding it frm it, u taught me to be strong & to overcome it patiently...

I'm proud to have u in my life... :)

Missing you my love... Take care my souljaboy..

Misunderstanding & paRty tiMe.

2009-05-22T12:53:00.005+08:00

Had a tiff with bf relating to this bitch called 'Nat'..

Seems dat he's been in cntct with her for quite some time but he kept it frm me...

Both of them are at fault... Criously, was fucking pissed off with him...

Juz dat i'm jz tired of quarelling...

Ouh boy, pls understand hw i feel..

For sure u wouldn't want to feel the way that i feel...it reallie hurts..

u simply said guys are guys..but still it's up to an individual whether to do it or not...

ur mature enuf to think...i've given u all the freedom that u need but ur loyalty & love is all dat i need...Nw dat u've done it despite promising me dat u've change, ur simply betraying my trust...

i miss the old times & dat ur different nw..haiz...

i'm so disappointed in u.. =(

Am trying my best to maintain my relationship..Problems after one another...

A getaway to Dbl O yesterday was quite fun actually despite my problems..

Couldn't care less about the guys there..he was in my mind alwaez even though he wasn't arnd..

Spot quite a number of my frens there...1 thing dat pissed me off was there was a fight there..Stupid matreps...Sampah masyarakat...

Ppl go there to enjoy themselves and dance but those stupid matreps make a scene thr...Haiz...

My gf & my nyah was alwaez with me...It was so cramp & hot at the dancefloor...

Muke masai & berpeluh-pelih....& there's this stupid matrep was trying to take advantage of me when it's so cramp like fuck...

Sialnye jantan...Geram aku!! Ikutkn hati mcm nk tampar je muke dier..Sabar je...

Hmm..got hm by 3.40 am...Bathe & slept...

aNothEr MoNday bLues. . .

2009-05-19T13:51:00.004+08:00

Hola bloggers...

i was late 4 my morning class..supposedly have to be in class by 8.30 am..

& yeah my class advisor juz reminded me & my gfs nt to be late & attend class regularly..

my attendance is so horrible...yeap2..was dwn wif high fever 2 wks bck...

epidemic flu.... ouh ya..& the stupid virus that's spreading overseas has been a hot topic..

I was otw to sch & coincidence, i met nelly in bus 17...

Saw zie & rai metres away frm us....

Met at sch bridge b4 we went for class together...

As usual, 2 hours of Costing module..

Bored... Numbers, numbers & numbers...

It's all about calculation...Ended class 15 mins early...

Change the old ezlink card to a new one at indoor sports hall....

whatever they call it..-CEPAS system-

prefers the old ezlink to the new one....

Hmm....went for lunch at cafe1..ate the same old thang..

nasi ayam thousand island..nvr get bored of it...

while eating, baby msged me to wish me gd morning...he's in camp nw...missing you dearie..

Rai went hm straight...im left with zie stuck in the library cos MLC is closed today.. haiz..

Not forgetting i have to study for my PTC CA1 which is tmr...damnn..

2 chapters of theory..gosh...

wondering whether i can do well tmr...

gonna get started with the revison soon ay...

Had some time to revamp my blog..

oh yea i did it..but it's a lil cork up with the template...

especially under affiliates & reminiscence...

sum1 pls help me...S.O.S!!!

adios.

-BoReD-

2009-05-12T13:47:00.003+08:00

Hey all....

i'm dead bored here...ended class at 11am..

Wanna revamp my blog..been tryin to edit the template & lookin 4 new blogskin..

Mine is so shitty...It takes time to edit a new blogskin..

ouh well, i have the whole time to myself to do it slowly...

Any idea of where to get a new simple & swit blogskin.??..

Hmmm.....

Feelin hungry nw..urgh...

I hate to stay at hm..Like ppl say home is like ur heaven..

Nt for me..For the past few daez, i've nt been sticking at hm..

Been out either for a jog or chill out with my elder bro n gf..

Spend most of my precious time with my darlin souljaboy when he book out...

Met him yst aftnn & he sent me hm...

Kinda miss him actually even though i met him yst.. :D *winks

My baby's in camp nw..No plans to go out..

He's quite concern when i'm outta house..

Believe or nt i have to ask his permission to before goin out..

Hmm..it's better this way...

The other time he was a lil pissed off when I went out w/o his knowledge. ++ i was havin fever..

Sorie dearie... I juz hate to stay at hm nowadays...well, u noe y..

Haiz...

missing you baby..

Approved. =)

2009-05-11T14:24:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time i'm nt blogging..
Hectic sch & werk schedule.. ++ family & darling bf..
Spent most of my off days either stayin at hm or wif bf...

Lately, been bz 4 last min preparation for Anugerah audition..
Hmm.. It's quite an experience to be competing with ppl who have very gd vocal..
At last it's over..
Thanks to dearest family, my bf & my lovely frens who came to support..
I won't stop just here yet..
Perhaps i should really explore my hidden talent...

Will be bz with upcoming sch events-Inter school dance comp & singing comp...
Nt only dat there'll be upcoming CA1 for AA1, CTG & PTC...
Hell of a time revising this 3 modules..
So complicated... ouh well, i've to pass this 3 freakin module..& gosh it's alrdy my final yr b4 gradutating...

Been tinking of my career prospect aft graduating..
Hmm...
Wonder which industry shall i channel to...
Wait till i'm in my 2nd semester then i'll decide...

Well, last fri my elder bro had a slow talk with my bf..
Haha..didn't expect it though..
I sat in btween both of em..tension sey..
They talked abt me & the hatred that my bro use to have on him...
At last my elder bro approved of us..that was a 50/50 approval at first..
Blablablabla....
Bf looked at me & smiled frm ear to ear all the way...
Funny.. =) My bro wish to talk more some other day when we're free... So excited... hehe..

-Hmm...To my dearest fren Nelly..-
I noe u can't stop thinkin abt him & u do still love him deep dwn in ur heart..
But let it rest 4 a while..who noes someday he'll jz come bck into ur life..
Don't pressure him at the moment..It wasn't ur fault darla & i noe it...
No matter wad u still have me as ur listening ear even though i don't see u often...
1 more thing...Be strong girl to overcome all the obstacles that's coming ur way...
Don't give up easily..Cos giving up means ur simply a failure...
Last but not least, have a speedy recovery aites.. =D

Not forgetting abt mother's day...
Dearest mum, I wish u a very Happy Mother's Day & ur the best mum i've ever had..
Despite all the family problems we're facing, u've somewhat pulled it thru...
Thanks for all the sacrifices & all the love u've poured since i'm born...
I'm sorry for all the troubles & my past mistakes which upset u.....
Ntg can ever replace u...
I luv u mama!!!

Till we meet again...Tata.

~ Present state ~

2009-04-20T14:17:00.004+08:00

Beginning of 2009 was wonderful...

Things are better for me nw..
As in my studies and my love life + my werking life..
Got a better GPA dis time round & i'm reallie happy abt it...
Mum was proud of my results & she knew i can do improve more on my results..
Less than 12 mths & i'm gonna graduate with a Higher Nitec Certificate in Accounting..
Juz dat it's gonna be tough on me balancing my time with werk and sch...

My babylove is always by my side to support me even though there are times dat we often quarrel...
I've learned to be more patient since he's serving NS full-time...
We don't quite spend time with each other...It's only fri & wkends i get to meet him despite my busy werking schedule ...
Hmm..kinda miss him actually... :)

Studies getting much harder...
Hmm...my previous G.P.A was 3.250 & recently i got 3.324....
There's a slight improvement..Can do better...
There are new modules this term such as Costing, Advanced Accounting 1 and Preparang Tax Computation..This is the only 3 modules that i'm taking this term..
All 3 modules seems similar especially Costing & AA1...
The format is somewhat very similar...
Had to attend 2 lecture classes every week... Monday & Wednesday, I end my classes at 5pm..Very tiring... Lucky, both days are my off days...
I can't waste my wkends to go out...Had to spend my time wisely to do my revision & catch up with the all of the topics as it is very confusing...

In sch nw...
No classes till 4pm..
Bored to the core...
Waiting for my pay day to book prac 2...
Haiz... Another week to go...
My babylove is going outfield..He'll nt msg me for this coming 4 days....
Gonna be making myself busy dis coming few days...

-That's about it!-

Much love,

NuRuL.

bRoKe.

2009-01-13T01:34:00.003+08:00

lil ms cheerful.

pay day was last friday nite..gosh..so many outstanding bills..
bikey, hp bill, internet bill & blablabla..
grr....
looks like i'm gonna be stuck for my bike prac & rtt...
funny thing is dat every mth i'm paying for the bike installment even though i'm nt ridin it...
if only i ended sch earlier & nw i've got somehw a stable job wif a better pay, i won't be so stressed up paying for so many things..

well..i took a short weekend break by the beach on sat..
set off to sis werkplace in the mornin till mid afternoon den we head to pasir ris park where we had a small celebration for the Jan babies includin ma elder sis...
had supper @ simpang bedok wif the Jan babies & met ma brothers there too..
me & sis join our siblings for bowling aft supper..got home early mornin aft sendin sis to cgh as she fell ill...had a great dae despite some ppl who pissed me off..chicken mcnugget*

Jan babies are LoveD.

back to sch..
well..this is the last term for the 1st yr..gonna start 2nd yr soon..
so much of assignments & revisions and so little time...
havin class test every now & then..
no matter wad i'm gonna finish my ITE days in less than 1 years time..
i'll move on to poly if my G.P.A is good enough or else i'll juz take pvt diploma while working..

i dunnoe what's goin on btween my parents..haiz..such a headache..
they themselves are confused..
bleah...wadeva..
it's their problem anyway..i can't interfere..
i noe i'll take gd care of maself & ma life..
my lil bro's getting more sensitive & emotional..
sudden change of hormones i guess..haha..
crazy brother of mine is in the same sch as me..
juz dat he'll end sch 1 yr later than me..
i jz hate to b in the same sch..but too bad..
my parents like it..seeing him almost everytime in sch is irritating..
but gd thing is dat he hangs out wif his guy frenz & not bother me.. =)

love life..
hmm...
confused state..but my heart belongs to sumone..
it's juz dat mayb it's nt the time yet..
prefer to be dis way enjoyin my life without guys hving to control my freedom & etc..
perhaps i lose interest in having a new relationship due to previous experience..
& i admit i'm lazy to get to noe other ppl...unless i have ntg better to do...

that's all fer nw.

nana.

iT's a bLaSt.

2009-01-02T01:58:00.002+08:00

countdown to 2009 was freakin fun..
celebrated hunney's bdae twice..
1st @ green patch..nxt at turnstyle..
came back very late..all along i was wif ma elder bro & ma frens..
[hunney,fad,san,haikal,alep,ajun,yanie,zairi,]
get to see the fireworks @Boat Quay..too excited till we jump arnd..
plan was cork up to the max..
thanks to "electric, he spoilt our plan..
wanted to go karaoke-ing but plan cancelled as it was damn fuckin expensive...
too bad some of us had to take cab to and fro cos we don't own any transport..
ate supper at BK wheelock place...
den went exploring to the swamp@ pasir ris park..

enjoyed my day! =)
well, countdown to 2010 will surely be a pleasant one. hope so.
most of us will own a transport soon. yeah.
>cars & bikes.<
lookin fwd to it.

(My NeW YeaR ResoLuTioN!)

excel in my studies [G.P.A= above 3.250]
pass my class 2B licence by May
fully modify my babylove.[X1 bike]
enroll class 3 licence
lose some weight :)
enjoy singlehood
pamper myself = more shopping pls.
more money cn??

ciao.

men aren't worth my tears.

2008-12-27T03:38:00.004+08:00

Guy's point of view!

This is very cute! And even written by a guy!

You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the roomand you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD' We enjoy doing it.

Smile and say 'thank you.

'Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.

Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

*****Give the nice guys a chance*****

Holdin Hands->

Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.

Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

Cuddling->

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.

Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

Movies->

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder

Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

Loving each other->

Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

Laying below the stars->

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat

Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and her.

_____________________________________

i'm beginning to care less about my surroundings.
putting aside all my probs & livin my life to the fullest.
all i noe is dat i live my life the way that i want it to be.
fcuk relationships. to hell with it...men are juz nt worth my tears.
swinging single & mingling arnd. :)

faking a smile which makes u tink i'm happy & pretend to laugh so dat u don't see me cry..fcuk it..i'm letting u go even if it kills me, i tink it's the best way cos even if i pour my heart out to u, u won't realise i love you more than you'll ever noe.

how i wish if there's such a guy like the above mention guy dat exist and was made for me..
haha..dream on baybay..it's a week away before sch reopens..
hw fast time flies..it's gonna be 2009 in few daez time..
damn..i've nt done a single assignment all thnks to my part-time job & my laziness..hehe..

& before i forget, sis gonna turn 21 soon..=) Happy advanced 21st burfdae my dearest sister..we'll be having a bbq pit @ ECP on 2nd jan 09 at pit 17. Nearest carpark will be carpark C2..The BBQ pit is in between carpark C1 & C2.. Party starts at 6pm till late. To those who received the invitation thru sms, ur presence will be much appreciated. Do bring presents k!! To all my cuzzies, do tag along yea.

my bestfren, my gf , my everytg.

aDioS.

tongue-tied*

2008-12-26T01:10:00.005+08:00

Time Clicks as I await

The hour ends before my take
Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes
The day grows old as night passes
Wolves crying, coyotes howling;
anticipating Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing
Silence begins the day as morning comes
without notice Tears begin to fall, slowly
The day moves on without hope
Wishing to be what is not to be
The sun moves to its peak without a whisper or retreat
Time moving, but still empty Stomach aching, curling
Still waiting

swoLLeN + Boring day at hm.

2008-12-23T22:30:00.004+08:00

had a fall with YBR bike yesterdae..
haha..
can still laugh..
at first it felt ntg..but later on the pain was excruciating..
damn..thnx to the stupid ballet shoes and the freakin heavy bike..
the instructor cn smile at me..funny thing was dat i fall on my left but my right leg was injured..
the best thing is dat i can't walk properly due to the swell & a burnt mark..
fish...
bored at hm..didn't even go out.
custard..

the swollen foot with colgate on it. -mum's idea

another view.

side view.

bored. :)

SiNgaPoRe vs VieTnaM

2008-12-22T02:10:00.005+08:00

ouh well..i was late to meet ma aunt at kallang mrt station..
they went off earlier to the stadium..
so i met my lil cousin, tiqahdoinks..
went off with her and walk to the stadium...

it's like miles away frm the mrt station.. kinda exhausted with a huge crowd heading to the stadium too.. freakin humid..can't find my aunt & her fam.. went in to find them..spent abt 15 mins walkin to the east area & back to the west area.. sad part..we can't find them like more than half an hour.. me & tiqah were sitting juz below the scoreboard yet we can't find them.. half the stadium was packed wif s'pore fans.. imagine..hw cn i locate where ma aunt was at..
at last calls after calls, den i found my aunt..
gosh..there were at the bottom section..
haiz..

most funniest part, i nvr seen my aunt was so enthusiastic cheering for s'pore..
haha..
tit tit tit tit tit tit tit tit tit ****..[s'pore - vietnam]
like chicken mcnugget...
& there's a bunch of mats sitting next to us..screaming at the top of their voice..
mcm phm ar dorg..

was damn frustrated when vietnam scores a goal.. s'pore missed 3 chances to score.. argh!!! buadufae9hfduawbd8whe9h9eh dncgbufbdkcmwpK.... no point watching..what a waste of time hurrying to see the match & at last the home team lose.. here are some of the pics tt i took..=)

aunt & uncle aunt & lil cousin,yanna.

me with my beloved cousin.

tiqahdoinks & me.

vanity.

cousins are love.

Excited.

2008-12-20T21:45:00.003+08:00

hmm..sumhow my bike will look like the pic above.
hope to pass by june or earlier...nxt step will be my car licence...
thnks to bro for having it for me..
cos he'll be driving a car soon..
-----------------
i'm bored at hm.. no mood to go out..
errm.....super duper boring bf..
doesn't msg or call..
it's best to be swinging single... =)

FaLLiNg aPaRt. oH GreaT.

2008-12-16T23:37:00.005+08:00

every child don't wish to see their family falling apart.
it's been always a dream to live my life happily with my dearest family.
after all this years of moments of happiness, gosh it's happening nw.
i dunnoe how to face the fact..
down with mixed feelings...
urgh...
can't bear to sit at hm...mind full of probs..
dunnoe who to turn to..
damn.to and fro..
what's next?? ..... shifting hse i guess..
where to?? .... no idea.
who to follow?? .... don even ask..

haiz...
now i'm stuck wif my prac..
budget's tight..
theory's early nxt mth..
overdue bills..ouh great...

great thing..cheerio..
get to talk to him..good news..
he found his old sim card.oh yea.
=) i miss him like 7625327486184 times.
so random.haha.

oh well, for now i juz need to take a break.tired of thinking.
a day by the beach will be my remedy. :D

2008-12-11T02:07:00.002+08:00

SCORPIO - The Intense One ( Oct 23 - Nov 21) Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous And/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or Secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

a fren of mine fwded an email about horoscopes. it's somewhat true abt me. haha..
i'm in holiday mood baybay..sch's gettin boring...
prefers to be at hm.. but..i rather stay in sch den at hm..
problems,problems & more problems..haiz..
my goodness..i dunnoe wad will happen next..juz wait & see..
i'm sick & tired of hearing the same old things..how i wish it nvr happen..
i could pretend ntg happened..but i juz can't lie to myself..
despite putting a smile on my face & joke around, can't deny dat i'm fcuking stress with all the problems lingering in my mind..
1 year of studies to go.. & i'll be free frm wearing sch u..shitass..
but time flies so fast dis yr dat i don't realise it...
gonna sleep soon.

tata.titi.tutu.

emotionally disturbed.physically abused.

2008-12-06T11:48:00.004+08:00

It's been few days now i've been having flu & fever... it gets worsen yesterdae after the incident happened..
i'm still in a trauma state..whenever my lil bro raises his hands, i'll be in fear...
haiz...
yesterdae afternoon, zie accompanied me too the tampines polyclinic to see the doctor..
i was given 1 day mc..
later on yesterdae evening, mum and sis sent me & ma lil bro to A&E CGH for checkup..
had a facial bones x-ray..can't reallie see fractures on my cheekbones..
waiting for call from the radiologist if there's fractures..
i'm just so upset & depressed..when will all of dis probs gonna end..
been given 2 days mc till sunday to rest well at hm...
hope that i'll recover soon.. :)

cold cold nite.

2008-12-04T21:14:00.002+08:00

hola..
wasn't feelin good todae..
sch end abt 3..
waited for my bestfren, zie to finish her BFS retest..
since yesterdaae, i'm down with flu & fever..
haiz..didn't have the appetite to eat a proper meal..
all thanks to the 'sick ' feeling..
even worst, i feel so cold due to the rain earlier..
i wonder when i'll be better...
it all started with my sighness 2 days back..
tot dat i'll be ok..but it got worst..furthermore, there's no medication for me at hm..too bad..
hmm..called boify in the afternoon..sleepyhead..ouh..he came bck frm werk @7 am...it's like 13 hr shift...gosh.. no wonder he sleeps like nobody business..
i totally understand hw tired he can be cos i've worked a 14-hr shift b4..
like totally exhausted..
hmm..before he left 4 werk in the evening, he did call me to say he's leavin hm 4 werk..aww...
but i wasn't the one who picked up the phone..all thnx to lil bro...
he was using the phone all dis while..
my frens were complaining tt they can't get thru me..need a solution to dis..
mum's gonna provide bck his Nokia 6233 fav phone nxt wed..
by den i'll be so glad to use my LG Viewty pinky phone. :)
nw i'm all alone at hm..mum haven't return hm frm werk including sis..
my elder bro went out wif his guy frens..
my lil bro & my dad went out to have a haircut..i'm freakin bored here blogging and surfing net frm abt 8+...
i guess after dis i'll be watching tv for some entertainment rather than staring at the laptop doing ntg..

-ciao-.

OuH cRap.

2008-12-03T23:19:00.002+08:00

damn..i'm falling sick..
getting the symptoms of having a fever soon..
i'm having a cold nw..haiz..
cold-blooded woman..haha..

& i miss him soooo much...criously...
can't get thru him even todae..he isn't at hm..argh!!
still hving sch...
haiz..bored to death...
lucky 2 have a fren whom i can talk to..
damn...how i wish the holidaez fer me alreadi start..
aiyah...
gonna sleep soon..tata..

ScH daeZ.

2008-05-15T12:19:00.006+08:00

Being in ITE isn't really bad...It's a place like heaven wif great ppl arnd me...Class advisor & especially my classmates are so outgoing..To the gurls dat i usually hang arnd wif, u guys r juz simply the best!! Dis goes to Siti, Tuty, Sheila, Nelly, Rai, Zie, Lidya, Muhi & Ashila..not forgetting Ayu n Nad..

Even though sometimes lessons are boring to the max, i enjoyed the moments in class.. :)

Eating sweets, scribbling notes, cracking jokes n etc..

BFD is so freaking boring & dry..The lecturer keep repeating the same topic..I'm loving AFD, OFA & LLA..

Juz hope dat dis 2 yrs of my journey in ITE College East will be a wonderful time for me... It's totally a different environment as compared to sec sch life.. I'm enjoying sch nw..it's like wow..i used to hate to go sch & now i love it.. haha...perhaps it's not really pressuring to study hard.. Afterall, my studies is still as impt..

Abt my love life, hmm...Ntg interesting...Happy wif it as it is...

that's all abt my life nw.. cheers. :D

Another plain day.

2008-03-11T22:22:00.004+08:00

Early morning abt 4.15, i've already woke up frm my sleep...
My company transport picks me up at 5.10 am..I had time to have a heavy breakfast...
I was deployed at F pier todae togeda with shikin and auntie diana..
Time passes so slow..By the end of my shift, it rain so heavily...B4 goin off i bought prata cheese sausage at GoGo Franks..As usual, i went hm wif shareen and maisarah..
As soon as i get home, i reheat the dishes dat my mum cooked yesterdae and ate..
Very hungry... After dat, i had nap till 6.30 pm..
My mum was making so much noise..Argh!! PMS...but i tink she's gonna have menopause..
Mood swings..i ate again at dinner time and feed my sis n younger bro..
Den my dad called me to his rm..another mood swing fellow..making noise abt the toilet..blablabla..
Right after dat i went to ma room straight not bothered abt wad he said..
I received a msg frm my mum spouting crap...criously i can't be bothered abt it..
Juz hate it when she nags..Wadever lah..
tired of all of dis..dunnoe when it will end...i'm kinda frustrated wif their sickening behaviour..
Usually when comes to the part where both of them quarrel, they'll put the blame on their kids..
Like WTH!!! Irresponsible...argh..dunnoe, don care & wadever...
I noe my sch starting soon..Lookin fwd to it rather than stay at hm... :D

Sentosa outing.

2008-03-09T21:43:00.005+08:00

It's quite a tiring day for me. Yesterday, i went to sentosa with the airport guide frm 2nd and 3rd shift. Had lotsa fun.. Sun tan for more than 5 hours. Great ppl...

The ppl who went were Farihanah and bf, Wani, Farhan,Danial, and the gang, Ayisz, Ida, Suriya, Vivien,Daryl, Jaclyn, Ganesan, Fifi,Wawa...
After swimming, went Vivo to had dinner..Met atikah n frens there..
Ate at MacD...

Well, wani almost drown..She was traumatised..Before dat, ida cried as she had some personal probs...Food was delicious..Ate fried rice with nuggets and seaweed chicken cooked by Farihanah a.k.a betty boop..

Took some pics there but haven't receive it yet frm Wawa..
I feel like we're a family..In 2 weeks time there'll be another outing to Jurong East swimming complex.. Lookin fwd towards it..

- My pay is almost gone but i'm glad dat i bought a red psp for my lil bro on his 16th bdae...There's a shortage in my pay.. Gonna call HR tmr to clarify...

Sch's gonna start soon..in a months' time..Yay!! I'm so excited abt it...Gonna go down to sch on the 20th for registration and to buy sch uniform..Cey accounting sey..Like real..haha.. :D
Hope to be in the same class as shareen and suzi..
Hmm..gonna resign by the end of mth... I'll have 2 weeks break before sch starts..1 good news..my dear gf is coming bck to sg in april..i miss her a lot..Gonna go shopping and eat out togeda..I'll spend the precious time wif her..She's nw in Perth..

hmm..gonna tuck in to bed.. Nitez.

Crossroads in Life

2008-02-20T20:48:00.004+08:00

In life, the are certain time where an individual have to make a very important decision in life. For me, the journey to my future has just started. For the very first time in my life, I feel that I am a failure and have failed to make my parents be proud of me. I've let down my parents.

I knew that my parents were heartbroken upon receiving the news that I got into Higher Nitec instead of a course in Polytechnic. I'm even more disappointed when I can't get the poly course of my choice. They don't even consider giving me a place where I can really reveal my true potential in nursing. Now I'm stuck to a course that I don't quite like, Higher Nitec in Accounting at ITE East College(Simei). Tears of regret won't change my fate. I'm proud at least to be given a chance to continue studying. After giving it a thought, perhaps i shall be thankful of what I've got even though I got disappointing results.

During the crucial period of O level, i can say that I wasn't concentrating on my studies. I'm not putting the blame on others for my unsatisfactory results. It's just that I want to make amendments for it. Perhaps a second chance for me to prove that I'm not a failure. I'm not gonna waste this precious chance to succeed in life. I'm gonna make full use of this chance to be a shining star and let my parents share the joy to see me as a successful person in the near future. Thanks to my elder sis as she instill motivation for me not to give up. She has been there for me whenever I'm in need of help. She understands me more than my parents.

I'm not gonna disappoint her. I'll show her that I can DO IT!!!
I'm looking fwd towards sch which will commence on 14 April 08. So excited even though there's a little disappointment. I'll study smart and be on task. No more slacking and playing a fool. Hehs.

Let this dream of mine to become a successful person turn into a reality.
My journey has just begun. :D

SiCk!!!!

2008-02-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

sick face. feel so sucky.

It's been a tiring week for me. My off day is tmr. I've been down with fever for 2 days now. Before that I've got sore throat. Then, it lead to blocked nose.Next, to flu & fever. Erghhhhh..
My body is weak. Yesterday i ate 2 Panadol before going to sleep. It's not working. Mum asked me to rest at hm till i get better. Tmr, Jenna is going off to Melbourne. She's studying there at Trinity College. All the best. Gonna send her off in the late afternoon. I dunno whether i should see the doctor or not. If it's getting worse, I need to go to hospital straight.
I need a rest now. Feeling a lil dizzy. Till then :D

Exhaustion

2008-01-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

After work, i headed home straight & slept at mum's room. I woke up from my sleep at around 4.30 pm. Morning shift is really tiring as compared to others. Looking fwd towards my off day on sat.I can rest well on Saturday. Gonna watch my favourite hindi movies. I helped mum to wash the dishes. She cooked spicy fried rice for us. Delicious.

I miss my GFs & ex-classmates. I missed school too.Going back to sch on April 2nd week. Gonna have my first pay next week. Yay! :D
Today the time flies quite fast. From 9.55 am onward till 12 noon, there's no departing flight. My colleagues and I spent the time solving riddles and cracking jokes. I had fun while working.

Now I'm in my room alone. My dad is nagging at my lil bro for some discipline matters in school. I hate it when they keep shouting at each other.Haiz. They're not deaf yet. They can talk softly and calmly. Getting used to it despite being feed up. It's not as if my lil bro is 12 years old. He's already coming to 16 years old & my parents treat him like a child. He's a young adult. Shouldn't treat him like a small kid. Haiz.

I'm tired. Gonna tuck in to bed soon. That's all for today. Cheers. :)

Off-day activities

2008-01-28T18:19:00.001+08:00

Oh well..Todae's my off day. First thing first, me n ma sis accompanied my mum to tampines 503. Then we met uncle mansor & went to had our lunch togeda at Afghanistan family restaurant. I ate nasi sambal goreng & sis ate nasi lemak. Uncle ate nasi goreng. Mummy diet mkn goreng pisang je. Haha. Now i'm at sis sch accompanying her doing her last semester project. She's fed up doing coding & stuff. Cracking her head to complete her final piece. I'm bored now. Ntg to do.Juz blogging and surfin net.

Here's some pic of us .
[Me & my sista]
sis..wad r u trying to do??

The other dae. The gathering.Trying her oversized shades. Aha.

wHeN boRedOm sTriKes,....PeaCe No WaR. :)

aNd wHeN sisTeRs MeEts, = CaMwHoRiNg.

Only half of her face is captured. Trying to act smart when the van is moving.YeaH.

*snap snap.

& at last got the chance to snap a pic. (=

Much love,
Nana.

aLoNe FaCiNg aLL oDDs

2007-11-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

Hey..Back to single again. Juz dunno y things won't work out for me. Giving full commitment but juz disappointed. Now, it's a new life, a new beginning for me. Completed my O's recently. Still findin a part-time job.

Haiz. Juz dunno y sumtimes dis tears of mine keep rolling down my cheek. My happiness isn't there anymore. Ain't smilin like i used to. Funny. When i'm attached, i wanna b single but when i'm single i wanna be attached. Haha.

Lol. Getting to know more new friends. Keep myself busy so i won't feel lonely. U noe how it feels when it's so lonely.

Hmm. New oath. I'll not find for love. Let nature takes its course. I'll let come by naturally.

Now my elder bro have problems. Haiz. Poor him. No matter wad he's still my bro. I admit even though he alwaez irritates me, I do love him. He's my ever caring bro.

Hope dat things will get better for him. Insya allah. Amin.

-Nana.*

FcuKiN BoRed

2007-10-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

> It's been 2nd dae of raya. Still not going out to visit my other family members. Thnks to my parents.

Haiz.Such a life. Urgh. Exams nearing & i'm so gonna die. Hurhur.Wish me luck to endeur all odds. :)

Camat Hari Raye!

2007-10-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

Apabila kedengaran takbir, airmataku jatuh berlinangan. Ternyata banyak perkara yg bermain di fikiranku. Kehilangan ahli keluarga dan suasana hari raya yg bakal aku rasai. Teringin aku ingin melihat wajah arwah nenekku. Tambahan pula dengan perpisahan yg bakal aku alami setelah lima tahun menuntut di Sekolah Menengah Temasek. Airmata itu tanda kegembiraan, kesedihan dan rasa sayu.

Ku ingin menyusun sepuluh jari dan memohon maaf kepada semua yg mengenaliku di atas segala salah dan silap yg aku lakukan sama ada ia sengaja atau tidak. :)

~ tHe joUrNey Left to my O's :

2007-10-07T05:13:00.000+08:00

Well2..I did horrendously in my prelims.
Not to mention my L1R5 grades. In a deep shit.
Less than 2 weeks left. Haiz. Next week is Hari raya. Hmm. No grandeur celebration. Too bad haf to stay at hm and do my revision. Not much preparation for raya. Bought a new baju raya in baby pink colour. No kuih raya & stuff. Next week fridae is my farewell dae. At last, feel relief leaving dat crappy skool.But after all it's nice having some sweet memories during the 5 year i've spent there. The teachers, classmates,friends, V.P & P.
Swit things comes to an end. Yet they'll still remain in my heart.
I've yet to leave a legacy behind. :)

RaMaDhan Eid MubaRak.

Loves,
Nana. :D

* sWiNgiNg siNgLe ~

2007-09-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

Finally, last saturdae, i had the courage to bring it out all dat i've kept abt him...
The moment of truth..He confessed to me bout his mistakes online..but once bitten twice shy..
He wanted to enjoy his life..I sacrifice my love for him and go separate ways just to see him gain back his happiness...But in return i juz can't forget everytg dat has been happening for 3 years plus. Wad more after watchin 'Love is Cinta'. It hurts a lot reminiscing those memories i had with him.
I don wanna brag abt the past. I forgive him but juz can't forget it. Watchin 'Love is Cinta', it seems to be like in a fairytale. Being with the guy i loved most but in the end he left me juz like dat.He didn't even say sorry. Why in the first place he didn't tell me abt his feelings all dis while?? I feel cheated and it's unfair. Why on earth he came back to me??
This time round it reallie hurts a lot. But i've kept quiet. Let time flies with the memories i had.
Let time heals the wound deep in me. Scars are left untreated. I'm awaiting a new beginning for myself. To do some soul searching before finding a companion.
I'm beginning to adjust myself to the normal surrounding being alone. Hate loneliness but wad can i do, i haf to face it on my own. Back to single life - square1. :)

LiFe is BaCk to NoRmaL.

2007-09-07T04:43:00.001+08:00

Hey...i've gone thru a lot of obstacles frm the startin of the year.Nw my life is back to normal.
Not worrying of personal problems anymore. I've put it aside.Most importantly i'm going for my education qualifications.
No doubt I need my family and friends support. I want to achieve success in my near future. I've learnt to be stronger and bolder in overcoming all the upcoming obstacles.
Sometimes having a close friend turns out to be ur worst enemy. I don trust anyone except for my family. They r the ones who'll stand by me when I need them most. In times of difficulty, I don see my frens helpin out in a way or another. Perhaps they'll pretend not to noe. Frens are onli there in times when ur happy. They'll nvr be there 4 u when ur sad/lonely or in hardship. They'll just sympathise but care less abt it.
So to people out there, if u wanna make friends wif me, u have to earn my trust. :D Good Luck.

It's hard for me to FORGIVE u.

2007-09-07T04:42:00.001+08:00

What hurts the most was the whole thing dat u've told me.
I may seem to be in silence but it reallie hurts me until it scars deep in my heart. I may nvr give what u always wanted but let me tell u dis, i have my reasons for it.
There's no point going on when u've love sumone else without tellin me. And u made it a point where u wanted me & her. Who the hell u tink u r?? I ain't a doll that u can toy my feelings with.
15 December she's coming back. I noe ur eager to meet her. If she noes u have a gurlfren, y the hell did she have to be ur scandal jack ass. I tink my patience wif u has reached at the maximum. U can have ur life dat u wanted always but remember don't come back into ma life after being turned down or hurt. I will not entertain u anymore. If other gurls were in my shoes, i tink they'd do the same.Perhaps giving u a slap in ur face. I've been keeping dis to maself all dis while. I can't stand it anymore.
I want to have my life as per normal. Enjoying maself & not be stress on dis matter. I want to be loved and not be hurt many times. It's hard for me to forgive u & forget all those things dat u've said. If u still have the feelings for dat fcukin bitCh, go ahead. I'll free u frm my life and erase u totally.
U've really upset me and i don tink i can go on wif u any further. Our journey ends here. Thanks for all the memories.
With love,
Nana.

~ To wHom it May ConceRn~

2007-09-07T04:38:00.000+08:00

It's been 3 weeks not seein ya. I'm sorie 4 nt havin the time to meet up. Perhaps i had a bz schedule handling sch and werk..But i'm disappointed that u've turn out to be different frm wad i thought.
I've been keeping quiet all dis while but u took advantage of dat. I may seem to be patient wif ya behaviour but now I can say dat i can't stand it anymore. 4 years of pain and laughter.Yet u don't seem to learn from the past mistakes.
Go ahead and flirt around.I don even have a place in ur heart.Perhaps I'm a nobody in ur life. I may left u alone and u might be thinkin dat i'm cruel to do such things to u but plz understand what i'm going thru. I'm tryin so hard to understand u but u proved me wrong. U've once say dat "we'll start a fresh new beginning" but history has been repeated. U've never stay to ur words and i'm nt gonna believe u anymore. U've juz KILL my trust.I'm so sick of all dis. It's just unfair. I'm so heartbroken. Too much pain for me to go thru alone. What did I do to deserve this?

DaMmiT!!!!

2007-08-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

well...it was last saturdae that i last meet ma guy..before i went off for my sales appointment..he's attitude da same..i didn't noe he had a performance on the saturdae mornin itself..cos the previous dae he was nt in da mood to talk to me..but how could he not inform me but he inform my upline??
i'm so angry...for the past 5 daez..i've nt been contactin him...but i msg him to inform him dat my pp8 was damn low..he just seem not to understand..usually he can use his sis phone to contact me..but previously i see no effort of contactin me..yesterdae he called me..he asked me where have I been dis past few daez..i'm skoolin n came back late almost everidae...furthermore i'm havin a family problem...he's blamin me dat he cannot be promoted to ME just because i haven't completed my sales target..like wat the fuck..i'm bz schooling & my prelims are so near..yet some ppl seems not to understand my problem...i tried to contact him but he's not pickin up my phone calls..i dunnoe if he merajok wif me or upset...he's avoiding me..wad more do he want me to do to make it up for my mistakes??? I'm so tired of all dis..IT'S ENOUGH GOD DAMMIT!!!
Nobody understand wad I'm goin thru...I'm emotionally and mentally disturbed...I'm trying to be strong to overcome all dis problems dat is pouring down to me...No one's there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on..I keep on sympathizing ppl..But when will i start to sympathize myself and care for myself...it's just unfair...like totally...

-nana.

Bz LiFe witH tHicK oBstacLes.

2007-07-29T01:49:00.000+08:00

heyz...
bz wit ma life as usual..
but things have struck..
this problems dat has been going on for quite some time of my life...
i've been werkin n at the same time skoolin too..
tried to fix sales appointment..thnk goodness...
haven't close deals yet but the thought of sharing it gives me satisfaction..
all the trainin i've been thru pays off..
i juz hope all of dis probs will end..i'm lookin fwd towards my o's...
it's gonna end in 3 mths time..also, i'll miss flag-raising after dat.. :(
bout me n dearie..everytg's fine..juz dat relating to our professional job scope, we have to overcome wadever problems dat we r goin thru..
btw 27 july was my uncle's bdae...oh man..i've forgotten..i tot it was nxt mth..
a bad niece i've been..not so...:D
tmr have appt at 1.30...n den abt 6 + will head on to celebration with auntie maya,nenek n co.
so i'm lookin fwd for my dae tmr.. yippee...
:D

Much2 Love,
Nana.

i MiSh HiM reaL BaDDd... :(

2007-07-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

It's a abt 8 daez been bz...well lately i have a 3 day motivation camp "I AM GIFTED" by Adam Khoo Learning Technologies...it's a great camp...well before attending the camp, i thought it was useless and pointless to attend a camp just to be motivated...at the start of it, i tot it was a boring camp...as time flies past... 3 trainers coach us..Mr Ramesh, Mr Freddy and Mr Melvin..great bunch of ppl...I've learnt a lot frm the camp..nt just study tips and strategies to improve in studies and achieve goals in life but it also help me to noe maself better..how i wish if onli ma darLink was there to comfort me when i cried at the end of the 2nd dae..i also seek forgiveness frm my frens n Mr. Kamlesh..hmm..end of the motivation camp was the saddest part.. i cried a lot...i gave a hug n kiss to my parent and cikgu asnia too..my lovely and wonderful teacher..she was the greatest teacher i ever had..i didn't noe dat there are ppl arnd me who reallie loves me...juz dat i didn't realise it..
well..4 daez i'm apart frm my dearie..it feels like 4 yrs..every now n den i keep seeing his pics in ma hp..Perhaps i'm not use to not seein him for a period of 4 daez..cos last week almost everidae i see him at werk..i'm beginning to start a new chapter in my life..being optimistic and positive abt ma life despite attempts of suicide before..i'm motivated to do better in life and give my best to anything that I do..I wanna be successful in life.. :D
Hmm..my new goals...get 11 points for my O Level..Wanna get into Temasek Poly in Diploma in Business..Also do my Degree in Business at University Of Singapore..I wanna bBe a successful business woman by 21..Drive a S200 Mercedes Benz by 2009 & hit my million dollars by late 20s...I wanna get married by 25 n start my own family..This ain't juz an empty promise..It's gonna turn into reality man..I bet on my last dollar..I wanna go all out for my goals..Whatever obstacles and difficulties that comes, I'm gonna endure thru it..I wanna change the life of ma family..Poverty will end..My family will lead a stable and happy life...This is my promise...

LUrve,
Nana.* XtweetX

# tHe LovE of Ma LiFe #

2007-07-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

heLo..HoLa2..
hey it's been a week over...well2..
after all the crisis..i'm gaining my full strength of love..
it's all thnks to HIM..and the efforts by me n ma boo..
nw, there's no excuse of not seein him rarely..
werkin in the same company wif him and in the same group..
isn't dat great?? no doubt our werkin environment has lots of ladies..
but he can't flirt around.. im his watch guard..hahas..
spend my fridae nite and the whole saturdae wif him...
a great boyfriend, ma bestfren n ma everytg..
had too much things to talk abt when i'm wif him..especially abt our future..
keep on dreaMin...but it's not wrong to dream of achieving success in life rite??
tmr i'm goin to Conrad Hotel for our company's exciting event...must dress in white top and black pants.. the even starts at 7...i have to be at city hall by 6.30 pm latest..dunnoe can reach there in time or not..i'm goin wif him and meetin our colleagues at city hall...
hmm..after spendin time wif him..i feel appreciated and loved...
but before dat i feel so miserable..both bz wif our own things..
I'm so lucky to have him by my side when i need him..juz dat some thingz he doesn't understand..for example my family prob...but nah...it's ok... :D
k lah..till here...

LaTiisHa. -FiNeSt PieCe-

SiCK. + CoNfuse

2007-07-08T19:19:00.000+08:00

heLo..it's been 5 daez not writing to ma blog.
I've been sick and weak.dats the reason.tot of goin hospital todae but ma mum say tmr have to go sch and see how's my condition.fever nearly 40 degree celcius. but now i'm a lil better.
i mish a lot of lesson.the impt one is ma fnn o lvl part b.wondering how to start.tmr is the due date for my coursewerk part a.i mean i have to submit to my teacher for editin.
despite him knowing i'm sick, he didn't take the opportunity to visit me.I'm so upset.
Yest,he told me abt his class chalet and a girl name 'Nabilah' who likes him.
Believe it or not they were together for 4 daez without my acknowledgment.He got the guts to tell me'baby,i love you and dats y i tell u'.Nonsense.If he loves me, he won't even do such a thing. If he did such a thing, I can do dat too. He asked me yesterdae, "why after running away from each other, we'll be back togeda again??"How would i noe?? If it's fated,we can't do anitg. He challenge me to run away from him and he run away from me. I'm not goin back with him if i run away from him dis time round. I wanna do some soul searching and be single as long as I want to.I've been longing to be single. Like wad ma sis said maybe he's nt da right one for me yet. :D

La BeLLa.

onLy LaugHter takes away my MiserY.

2007-07-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hey..
i make some frenz on frenster.nice ppl.it's good having friends around me.
Most of the time, they'll entertain me and crack jokes.Fun bunch of ppl.YeaHs.
Life is full of problems.Personal,Studies,Relationships and etc.
the only way for me to forget my problems n misery is to laugh my heart out when my friends crack stupid jokes.Also,when i go out n have fun wif my gurlfrenz going for some window shopping.FUN3...
Hmm..nw i don tink abt relationship.Put it aside even though i've got a guy.
It's hard for me to be thinkin alone on making the relationip strong.
For now,studies my first priority.Next mth some exam will begin.I wanna make my 5 years of studying in temasek worthwhile by achieveing good results.L1R5 should be less than 15 points.
I'll do it with effort put in.Dats about my studies.

That's ll folks! :D

Lotsa Love,
Nana*.

i WaNna be SinGLe CaN??

2007-07-02T14:40:00.000+08:00

HoLaz..
i'm longin to be single again despite havin a relationship currently..
if im single i wanna be in a relationship..if i'm in a relationship i wanna be single..
hahas..dats wad my fren says..
it's just dat i don have the courage to tell him off..i'm scared dat after we break up..
after mths,we'll meet again.. :(
i don want it to happen again..im so sick of it..
btw on 21st june...it was our 1st mth anniversary..he didn't even wish me..
den y should i bother to wish him..Haiz..
even when i'm in a relationship, many guyz wanna noe me betta..
but i rejected..n dats the fact..he's so busy wif his werk until he has no time for me..
dis few daez no phone calls unless i give him a miss call n he'll call back...
i don have the heart to hurt ppl's feelingz animore..den how should i express my misery??
somebody help me..pls give me ur opinion.. :'(

witH Love,
Nana*.

My LoVe for HiM..

2007-07-01T13:56:00.000+08:00

HoLa HeLo..
Hmm..since i'm wif him, i felt dat my love has faded away...
it's all bcos of the past..dis time round he's the one who came back to me..
but i don have the heart to tell him abt dis...he love me soo much..
i dunnoe wad to do..i don wanna betray him..it isn't fair..
tell me..wad should i do..haiz...i juz dunno wad to do to love him back u see...
when i'm out wif him, he alwaez talks bout his ex-gurlfren..
den who am i?? if they're so good to him, y do u take me back??
especially on last week fridae..he brought his ex-gurlfren to ECP..
they talk as if they're in a relationship..it's nt dat i'm so jealous or wad..
it seems he ignore me and pay attention more to him..
they even walk by the seaside togeda wif afiq..then who am i??
even at his werkplace,other girls fall for him..
i told him off dat if u reallie like other girls,let me go on my own..i let u go on ur decision..
many times i told him dat..he doesn't seem to understand..
if i break up dis time round, i wouldn't wanna go back wif him..the last n the final..
:D it's my final decision dat i've made..

Much LOve,
Nana*.

BeEn Bz..

2007-07-01T04:20:00.000+08:00

heLLo..

well..it's been about 9 daez not writin ma blog..

sch reopened..new timetable..bz schedule..have to start my revision..

less time for enjoyment and tv..me n ma guy have not contactin each other abt few daez nw..

we're bz..he's werkin n i'm schoolin..i understand his tight schedule..

hmm..but one thing..he didn't remember our anniversary date...haiz..

but nvm..i miss him a lot..not seein him another day of my life seems like a year to me..

i'm wonderin wad if he has to be away frm me going overseas in sept for 2 weeks..

it'll be like 20 years to me..mm..time flies so fast...sumtimes we don realise it..

but a day without any phone calls or a message frm our love ones, we are worried sick..

thinkin wad he/she is doin..i'm countin down to o level exams..it's gonna be abt 3 mths+..

i'm dead meat..my grades is not improvin yet..how da hell am i gonna do in my prelims..

did my oral Malay on prev fridae..it sux man..i ran out of ideas to talk..it's in e past..ntg's gonna change my grades..

Btw i changed my hairstyle...credits to ma sista..love her..ma hair is long now..love it man..

i wanna keep it long..no more haircut for me..yeahs..

Love,

Nana*.

-Me & HiM*

2007-06-21T12:46:00.000+08:00

HeLuU..
it's nearly 4 years i've known my guy..
after runnin away frm each other,we finally meet again..
he's now workin to support himself..i juz dunno y other gurls can easily be attracted to him eveb though he already cut his hair..haiz...
it's not dat i'm jealous or wadeva, i don bother about it...
knew him too well...i still believe dat no matter wad, he'll stick to me... :)
sumtimes if we know a person too well, we may get bored over time..dat is wad i feel..
but when comes to tink of it, he's the one who'll alwaez be there 4 me...no matter wad happens...

LOVE,
nana.

HoLaZ*

2007-06-21T02:35:00.000+08:00

heluu..
my holidaez r damn borin...stay at hm..doin ntg..sumtimes clean up the house...
over the time, i get bored stayin at hm..it sux to the core...
there's one point of time i went out for shopping at wisma atria topshop..the clothes are nice, but i ended up not buyin a single thing...now i go for online shopping..it's much more cheaper & affordable.. :)

bLaMe Me fOr everyTg

2007-06-13T03:58:00.000+08:00

hey there..back again..njoyin my hols at hm...nowhere to go.. yesterdae i went wif kak noora, my foster sis to nokia service centre..sent my younger bro's hp for a repair...we went lookin for some nice tops...but ended up buyin ntg...ntg seems attractive...perhaps one of dis daez, i shall set myself free to do some shopping spree...

Btw, i msg him dis afternoon...who else rather than ma boo...he asked me to give a call at afiq's number...i did so...by one judge, i noe he seems unhappy by the tone of his voice...well, 4 years known him inside out..can't deny the fact...he's juz unhappy dat i didn't msg him 4 the past two daez..like hello...i do feel lonely...bored n it kills me...daez back i waswerkin and i'm tired...coincidence my pp8 went low...juz todae mama top up for me...fr $11.10 to $6.28...it's been 1 hour chattin wif him on the phone...
One thing i can't accept, he said if i find a new girl, things won't change..one dae i'll get back wif u again...well...if u don like the way i am, u can juz fuck off asshole...yeah i'm a bored person..not much freedom...i can't do dis n i can't do dat...wad do u expect me to do??? I'm simply HELPLESS...can't u see...i don't go against my parentz words...cos i noe they've taught me since small not to be rude to the elders....dat respect is high...i can't simply sacrifice dat juz to go out wif him...i noe his stress up cos his frens have been asking where's ur gal mann?...
He answered she's at hm everytime his frenz ask for me...tell me wad can i do??sneak out frm window to go out..?? ppl wif education doesn't commit stupid thingz...i tink before i act..nt simply blindly act on smtg...

i hate to be nag...he noes it but yet...i don blame him...he's worried sick for me..yeah rite...if he does, he should have been calling me asking how am i been doin lately...nt even a call or a msg...i juz dunnoe...feels like givin up but all efforts will be put to waste...might as well move on even though small issues can trigger to a bigger one...i cooled down but i can't bear those piercing words...simply hurts me...he called me biatch...he doesn't call me by dat name unless he calls some outsiders...haiz....tears by tears...wad cn he do to console me?? ntg...but he did offer to meet up for abt 5 minutes to hug me..?? WTH...like wat the hell...i can't be bothered...feels like runnin away frm him...but i can't...dunnoe why...

love,
nana.*

FoUnd his pic

2007-06-10T03:04:00.001+08:00

Hey...i finally found his side view pic on one of ma oldest blog...believe it or nt..his picture was taken 2 years ago...haha...he look smart n cool..hehe..he's tHe one & only for me...it's fated...ican't look for sumone else i guess...keep bumping into him and at last i'm wif him... :)

I'm glad to be wif him nw...hehs...

JuNe HoLz

2007-05-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

hey hey...wadup....firstly i wanna sae happy holidaez for pri sch n ssec sch kiddo...i'm nt enjoyin my holz neither...have to come back sch for classes..sch starts at 8+ and end abt 4 or 5 pm...so late...almost all of my subjects...the first week terok...tsk3...wad to do..preparation for o's...

actuallie sittin at hm everi dae is so damn BooriNg...i'm nt gonna misz sch btw...first n second week in sch....on 13th june got science camp...frm 10am till 9 am 14th june....it'z gonna be fun man...gonna enjoy it wif ma classmatez...fun bunch of peepz yeah....hmm..btw i'm enjoyin my life...i've got companion..back wif him after 4 yrs of ups n downs togeda...dis time round it's gonna be sumhow tough...but nvm i'll go thru all odds...he's tHe OnLy ONE for me...no runnin away frm each other...Dis is wad caLLed 'FATE' babeh...i believe in it...1 week has past...stiLL sTandin strong togeda.. :) peace...

much LoVe,
Nana.-adeQ

cOnFeSsioN

2007-05-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

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-cRaZeEinLuRvE.gurL

~ SurPriSiNg~

2007-05-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

well2...after abt 9 months disappearing...saw him last mth at tampines mall wif his fam.. i notice sumtg...even if both of us r tryin to run away frm each other sumwhere or sumhow we'll meet back..it's like a rubber band..no matter how far u stretch it..it'll become like its normal shape...

it's gonna be 4 years dat i knew him....no matter wad happens we'll find each other back...im wonderin...is he my life companion?? is like we're made for each other...if god is gonna show me dat he's ma life companion, i won't be surprised...i keep runnin into him...

we did contact each other back recently...it was on his bdae dat i msg him...got his no frm his cousinz..but very suprising dat last sat he ask me out to have breakfast wif him...ain't dat swit...i can't make it cos i woke up early juz to clean up da house n do house chores...on sundae also he ask me out..he was bored at hm & had ntg to do since his family members went out n he was at hm...

we chat on `e phone at abt 12+ midnite...talk abt `e past..memories togeda..swit n bitter moments...oh god...i MiSh HiMm...well, i cn confess dat i still do lurve him...hehe...he've changed...quit smoking..no childish behaviour...hope so dat he won't change back to his prev behaviour..turnin 18 next year..have to be matured..call himself a man n ain't a boy....haha..like duHh...i juz hoPe dat both of us won't disappear again...i don wanna lose him as a fren...he's one of a kind guy who's fun to b wif ya noe... :)

till here....buBboi...

*-HaPpie m3.